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Friday, January 30, 2009

http://www.mgs.sch.edu.sg//article/689#top
omg this website just made the photos in my crashed harddisk feel so priceless ARGHH I WANT MY PHOTOS BACK !!!!!! and im not ready to pay 500$ for it YET. hurrrrr need to find cheaper alternatives.

`4:44 PM__;

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i have "shagged" writted all over my face.
i napped for about 3hours without even remembering going to my bed last night
after i woke up i waited till 2+ for her to wake up so that she can finish the rest of her food, and she zzz-ed again
stayed up till about 5+ 6 & give her more water when she began to wake up and start struggling again (she drank like 50ml - thats 1/3 of whats shes supposed to drink in a day)

hence she had alr peed in her bed this morning when i woke up at 10+
got everything cleared up with some help,
fed her medicine + water + food. she drank like 100ml of water (2/3 of whats shes supposed to drink in a day which is alot for 1+hour)
and now shes slping. for a dog so small, i think she sleeps 3x more than i do.

i love kessie, and of course nikki too (:
and i want to shower and nap
ppl are coming at 1530. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
exhausted^E99

`1:07 PM__;

Saturday, January 24, 2009

today was horrifying.

at 12am our dog was found hyperventilating. dajie and i were freaked out and scared.
and after ................
we were in tears scared of losing her and i called erjie to come home
together with my mum, the 4 of us went to animal hospital. we reached at 0019am , i think she kinda suffered a stroke, and has abit of cataract and a few problems due to past problems..

my 13 year old girl is old and going strong still. even if she appears physically weak. we were so worried and scared sobbing and sobbing and well, i felt better when the doctor told us shes quite stable even if shes abit immobile and unable to move her legs and feed herself. shes not in the life threatening state. i still think shes really strong inside. she'll be rooming with me now... prob stay there 24/7 or something till she gets better. we'll take turns to forcefeed her water food and medicine.

and i realised what i'd be like if something similar happened to a person i cared so much for.
i realised how much responsibility the 3 of us will be bearing from now on
we'll have to force feed her.. and she'll prob pee and shit in her lying down position.. i dont even know if she can pangsai cos shes QUITE constipated. and now. effects of stroke. she cant bend her front paws.. and cant even stablise herself when she stands up.

`5:16 AM__;

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

good things are happening to me... for a moment, it feels too good to be true. and at the same time, is it because i have adjusted my own behaviour for letting things fall into place so well or is it just short term goodness. 1+more month before results come out. ugh.

but i have no idea why, its like my body is automatically starting to get rid of my bad habits, and i woke up just half an hour ago! this isnt the first time.
if i hadnt been awake so early ytd, my friend wouldnt have bugged me to go jobhunting & i wouldnt have found a job so near my own home, and i wouldnt have found a greater opportunity to spend time with another friend.

i love the holidays. i think im really accomplishing everything iw anted to do :) except the cross stitch part. this sat im going to dhobyghaut so hopefully spotlight will have the right needle for me >.<" just one year ago i was having so so so so so much difficulty trying to do things i'd said i'll do, and now its like a breeze.

`7:39 AM__;

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

i had 1000 opportunities thrown in my face
- scholarship
- job
......................

i had no idea how to decide, what to choose, or choose nothing at all, whichever'sbest for me, or good enough for me, or whether i was even qualified enough. and couldnt help wondering what'd become of me if i chose each path.

so

feeling fickle... as usual.

i went to search online about decision making, so that i could make better choices..
and realised in the end after reading wikipedia's analysis about the flaws in decision making (which i have alot of), i have no idea what to think anymore.

in the end it stlilboils down to me.

i can do a complete analysis, and still have no clue which one i'd like in the end.

sigh. ive been slping about 5-7hours twice a day since last fri.

`4:36 AM__;

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

i have alarming news!! very cool news.
old news.
with thanks from wikipedia

Adolf "Adi" Dassler (November 3, 1900 in Herzogenaurach, Bavaria, Germany - September 6, 1978 in Herzogenaurach) was the founder of the German sportswear company adidas.

By 1948, the rift between the brothers widened. Rudolf left the company to found Puma on the other side of town (across the Aurach River), and Adi Dassler renamed the company adidas, deliberately using all lower case letters.
(rudolf is his brother.)

In 1973, Adi's son Horst Dassler founded Arena, a producer of swimming equipment. After Adolf Dassler's death in 1978, Horst and his wife Käthe took over the management. Horst died nine years later, in 1987.

COOL EH. this family must be damn rich lol. but so much conflict. at least all the money earned goes back to the same family even if you choose puma arena or adidas.

i may have screwed my bio clock. but im glad to say that, the year has started off well :) im ready to search for jobs! ive accomplished almost everything on my todo list during hols and now mdm let me asst coach them whenever i can make it, erjie is letting me take over her tutoring my cousins and im going to find another part time job. hehehehe and im almost done with my crazy shopping. this week i have 2 books to read: tales of beedle the bard by jkrowling & my story by dave pelzer - 3 in 1 book (a child called 'it', lost boy, a man named dave) recommended by my erjie. and im gna meet brenda tmr :D finally.

and well.. about the entry on 30th dec. my dad told me to find another job outside, at least got $$ inflow hahahah. and my mum found a new maid alr -.- shes coming tmr.

`1:43 AM__;