maple leaves.

Monday, July 30, 2007

yesterday, a maid who's been with my family since 2000 left for home. i know i'll miss her, we joke about alot of not nice stuff, and shes quite annoying. but what i didnt expect was for her to come into my room tearing to wake me up telling me she was leaving.
and, the stupid half-awake me wanted togive her a hug but i dunno if i did. i only rmb still lying in bed half dead holding her hands saying, "dont cry"

i mean like. WHAT KIND OF WAY IS THAT TO SAY GOOD BYE TO SOMEONE YOU ACTUALLY LOVE AND PROB WONT SEE AGAIN?! =.= but my mum said that FOR MY SAKE, she'll let her come back when the other maid goes back for holiday. haha. :) that maid was the best at waking me up no matter how annoying it was. and i really do like her. =/ well, im happy for her now that she can finally go home after 7 years here. :)

anyway, today i just unexpectedly broke down after our run. and im really glad yihui was there with me today. aiya i dont want to study. shit. and its like week 6 already and week 7 is gonna pass by so fast esp since its like national day and all that. --.

ohya, we had mg founders last wed. it was like the first and maybe the last time i'd hear the whole hall singing christian songs togther. i dont hear anything like that in school now lah. it makes the atmosphere so bleah. i was damn happy to see my old classmates and teachers once more. :) except for miss teo though. =/

i dont want to grow up. :(

`8:23 PM__;

Saturday, July 28, 2007

National Geographic:
Bengal tigers are protected in India - should this be reconsidered? In West India, the Sundarbans, Bengal tigers attack and kill 30 to 50 people ever year.

tigers are really beautiful creatures.

okay, anw i need to like really manage my time and try to sleep at proper times, i never fail to sleep in school and sleep the minute i come home for the past one week. and i also need to wake up earlier. but like despite all this sleeping in class stuff, my teachers see no need to meet my parents on parent-teacher day cos theyre supposedly "happy with [me]". =.= and i think i've been quite an unreasonable bitch lately.

i think the first half of JT's lovestoned music video is quite cool. :D

i want to watch simpsonsssssssszzzzzz.

`10:43 PM__;

Sunday, July 15, 2007

haha, this is so funny.
in school i feel so motivated to do work, no chance to sleep but i sleep.
at home its the complete opposite. motivation is gone, got chance to sleep but i dont.

i spent the past 16 hrs with the tv. .__.

my mind has been quite idle the past few days. i have been going through changes which i still cant seem to accept, but yet slowly adapting... really slowly...
stand chart registration starts soon, and so do other cross things im gonna have to start working on.

today, it happened again. thinking about it just makes me kinda confused.

there have been 3 cats that have been wandering around my home lately. its quite funny considering i have 3 dogs that dont chase them away but they're like a little family. really cute! i'd really like to post photos of them right here but theres something wrong with my thingy. :( oh well,

`3:00 AM__;

Sunday, July 08, 2007

i was watching harry potter 2. :) now im watching live earth. it may seem abit boring and yet interesting? haha. i'd actually like to answer the call. lol. motion sensor lighting looks interesting!

anyway, i dont think i'll be blogging so much now. terms results were ...
school's been really exhausting. i cant last a day without feeling sleepy.
i should stop fantasizing about trying to get away cos its still quite an unreal thing for now, would be just wasting my time thinking about it.
so i shall just force myself to focus and do what i have to do.
i cant wait to watch harry potter! (:
oh ya. trg's starting to cut down abit. =/
i really dont know when i can and should start training hard. i really dont like getting any slower than i am now.

aiya i think i go sleep soon. got quite abit of work to do this weekend.
will prob need to say byebye to tv world. :(

`4:06 AM__;

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i need to wake up in 2hours and i havent packedmy bag nor have i continued reading what i wanted to read.
i watched transformers today!! i love it. SUPER GOOD. and managed to catch up with brenda abit. :)
this year got alot of sequels - pirates of the carribean, shrek, harry potter, spiderman, fantastic 4, oceans 13, rush hour 3, the bourne ultimatum???, narnia? (maybe2008), ithinkimissedoutsomemorebutcantrmb, but isnt that alot already for one year?!
then theres high sch musical 2, and ive been seeing littlemermaid 2, brotherbear2, pocahontas2, hunchbackofnotredame 2, ladyandthetramp2, atlantis2, 102 dalmatians, lionking2 on disney channel though they werent out this year, but it really does add on to this alot-of-sequels thingy this year.

school starts in 3.5hours and i havent slept and i cant bring myself to pack. i am so going to die in class and in trg. atleast i still cant do any hard until the knots get unknotted. -.-

aiyah, i need a longer holiday. i've got so much i wanna do! so much i dont wish to learn. beh. and for some weird reason i think im starting to think economically like. opportunity cost of time spent doing anythingbut sleeping, or goingto sch instead of watching tv. or blahblahblah. -.-
grr. i want to find out more about the story!! shitz. and then i still havent finished rereading that book. and im quite sure after trg tmr im gonna zonk out on my bed.

`4:00 AM__;

Monday, July 02, 2007

today's entry is quite happy.
but ill start off with, i havent bothered to do any hwk since exams ended. and i dont think i will do any hwk until sch starts again on wed. -.-" going out with brenda tmr! :D
my chinese A Level oral is this thurs and ...

update update, i've been playing cartoon games. -.-" and going on a tv overdose.
im quite sleepy right now, cos i slept at about 4 last night just playing cartoon games and reading 2 chpts of harry potter and had to wake upat 645 for trg.

right now, i will be going for trg but reducing my intensity until my leg gets better. and some days imight go swim, some days i'll prob go cck and support!!! but i dont think i can pon sch on monday leh. hai. if not last resort - take taxi after sch. X_X

and today, i had trg, and went to aud's house after that for about 3 hours. met other sec 4 classmates. and when nic ng came. I STUPIDLY WALKED IN TO AUDREY'S GLASS DOOR to try to welcome nic.. and there was this very loud thud on the door cos my knee knocked into it.
nvm, thats ok.
what's not ok was everyone's reaction. they were laughing like mad as if... it was something not meant to be missed, like the top joke of the century or something. but i found their laughter really hilarious. cos they looked so crazy. hahahaha.

then i had pw meeting, then watched tv, and then i went to nydc for erjie belated bday dinner. and we gonna go on a movie this sun!! :D finally. more 3-of-us time.

im reading harry potter book 5 again. need to refresh my memory for movie 5!.

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btw in this entry, the word "you" isnt really directed at anybody.

sometimes i know it when a friends not ok, but yet i would really like to help my friend feel better or console that particular friend. and i'd just stupidly ask "hey are you ok?" when i know that my friend IS DEFINITELY not ok even if my friend says "im ok". and i find it a rather contradicting and pointless qsn. yet i dont know how else i can help to make my friend feelbetter. it really does make me feel sad to see my friend like this but if theres really nothing i can do, it just makes me feel rather bitter.

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sometimes, i have insecurities with my friends. even close ones. like whether im really annoying them by my continuous yapping, or they actually detest me but they dont say it, or like suddenly they dont tell me as much, they have so few words to say. and i dont know whether my friend wants to drift away, or that friend's just not in the mood. cos sometimes, people arent so direct as to shoo their friends away but instead, just avoid them.

and of course, having realised that i had some form of inferiority complex when i was younger, i am still quite full of insecurities and tend to "think too much".
bleh.
and then like once in a while, those few friends i had insecurities with would just say a little something or a simple statement just to reassure me.
dear friend, i can count on you for life. (:

no matter how few words we may have, i seem to have some special bond with you. i dont know what. sometimes you feel like a stranger to me but yet i really cherish these rare moments when you know me better than anybody else.

i am very happy. my 2 greatest/good friends from overseas are back. mg founders day is coming. a few sec4 classmates are going out this weekend. it feels great being with my mg friends. :) i am very happy.

`11:46 PM__;