maple leaves.

Monday, February 26, 2007

so. why am i awake. i slept for 6 hours and im ill and tired. ineed to wake up in 3 hours and i might actually be late. and school starts in 4 hours. i've been nocturnal again eversince cny started.
my bad habits are all ocmng back, the past few days have been like a nightmare (in a weird manner) and i need to vomit. vomit out rubbish in my stomach, vomit out junk, and every single bit of rubbish that went into my head. im still on a learning journey that just doesnt ends. i dont like new blogger. its advertising my email up in that NavBar and now the whole world will know my name. gah.

i did get to walk with leticia for some 30++min? not sure, but im really grateful for it. and i ended up going to my class thing at joleen's place because i felt weird at home. my sister's friends are here playing mahjong right now.
i need to re-sort out my thinking. and rmb: overcome laziness, not to be too impulsive and think that im always right, remember my other priorities such as my piano exam being in one month, remember to do whats right. and then.. theres that conflict i have with my conscience and my heart.
justnow at bibi&baba, my dad bought an RI/RJ pe shirt (cause hes from there). maybe that was his motive for coming to buy uniform with me. hahaha.

`3:17 AM__;

Sunday, February 25, 2007

i wanted to swim.
but ended up not swimming.
so, why do i do things that i always end up pissing myself off?
1. overcome laziness
2. i need to be more disciplined.

poot. its like i see myself getting slower by te year. eversince TNg left.
i see myself getting weaker, more injured, more sick as time goes, eversince i sprained my ankle. this is shit. THIS IS SHIT. UGHHH. ok i still have a tiny headache now.

i woke up at 1230 ytd, it rained so i didnt swim. then i went off to MR cos i wnted and felt that i should support them. in a way, im glad i didnt run, cos i dont like to race at MR when its wet. i know it feels good to run in the rain but, aiya, im also sick now. so im just saying bullshit. im just missing long runs like mad. but for that matter, i dont hate intervals anymore, ilike it too, just that i like long runs much much more.

anyway, i went for b2 gathering afer that with teo. apparently ALOT OF PEOPLE had left already -.- so thre was only caoyu, phyllis, mary, jerlyn, yunjing, jamie, teo & me. had quite abit of fun. i like my sec4 class. just that, abit hard to get everyone together... but when we do, i think we can bond much better. :) we were at yunjing's place for a while, then went to KAP at 7 for dinner nd then cold storage. hahaha. stayed there all the way till 9+. after which i headed home feeling quite tired but i didnt feel like sleeping so i stayed up til 5++am. talke to leticia or lik 1hour on the phone. spent most of the time talking to ppl online, and actually doing proper blog surfing. (whereby i actully read people's blogs without knowing their existence on this earth.)

woke up at 12 today (which is considerably good cos dajie&i planned towake up at 1130 and we were still awake at 5+am) then went to bibiand baba. ahhahaha, the uniform is damn ma fan leh,. compared to mg. gosh, i'd rather stay in mg uniform. ._. my mg uniform is hung up as one piece, so when i wear it, i wear the blouse and pinafore together at one go. hahahaha whereas ac is so.. troublesome. the same goes for any other jc ad etc. hahahah. anw, i saw 2 other mg girls (in ac) there who came later to bibiand baba. quite amusing. but i thik its nicer to buy uniform wth my mum, than my dajie and dad. lol.

my typing is becoming ike shit or i'm starting to type too fast for my comp to register what its typing. hhahah i keephaving so many typos. -.- anyway, ive been coughing out phlegm since ytd. my sinus has been making me vulnerable to sickness since the end of sec 3? why.why.why. am i so weak. GRR. i've been sleeping relatively earlier, eating more healthily, taking those vitamin thingys my dad makes me take everyday, and grrr its just pissnig me off. i dont like to be unable to run. and i'm complaining too oo tooo much about it. kkkk i'll change topic.

my current class is damn on leh. monday, had gathering at titi's place, tues had another one, fri, had an unsuccessful one, ytd another one. today also another one.
and i only went for the one on monday. i feel quite bad im ot going today, but its quite inconvenient. and ive been feeling very lazy lately. plus my friend ask me to rest at home. and now i'm giving lame excuses. .__. monday onwards, i shall TRY to start anew, and be less lazy.

ive been rambling and rambling and rambling alot on this blog. poot. i need to brin thermometer and.. and.. and the stayover-in-ac-every-thursday-night-till-nationals consent form! phew, i almost forgot.

i feel like calling leticia up now to go fora walk around the estate. i hope shes free. lol.

`3:41 PM__;

Saturday, February 24, 2007

today iwoke up at 7.
my head was super giddy and it felt really heavy. my back and my legs were aching, my neck was hurting. bleah. nd i slept at 11+ last night. thats considerably early.

dont know why i woke up late, but i managed to get to school on time. i was glad my mum sent me, if not i'd just die along the walk to school. i felt damn sick during assembly. my throat also felt abit sore and my head would hurt whenever i get up, jump, cough, sneeze. felt sick all te way till 11+, i actually felt better ( i think its cos of honey lemon :D).
then for trg, there was lightning and we did circuit trg. it was quite fun but at the same time crazy. my quads were hurting along the stairs (its been aching since i did terrain on wed, stair climbing on thurs pe) and fiona asked me to stop running. so i finished up the other strengthening and headed to the gym. did the usual 40min cycling, but for some reason, the whole seat was all sweaty when i ended. -.-" ad my shirt was soaked.

ive been aching everywhere for the past 2 days, except my arms and shoulders. but anw, after trg i went for movie uner the ceiling again, itwas sweet! but quite sad lah, they cut off some part due to technical prob. after that, i headed home.

i dont think i'll be racing tmr. this morning i woke up feeling so sick i decided not to run tmr. but i also realised today that, i WANT to race, but it wont be doing myself good. cos i do know that if i race, it'll just aggravate my leg/s problem. anw theres more than one problem with my legs. grr. its some parts AROUND both shins, and the inflammation at my left ankle which seems to have stopped giving me probs. just that now my left heel keeps hurting. but leticia asked me to come down support hahaha, i'll prob wake up late, go for a swim in place of trg, and then go to MR. after which i'll head off to b2 0506 class partyy. :)

1. i need to buy shampoo. the one at home's finishing! i need go supermarket buy shampoo!
2. i need to sleep earlier and wake up earlier on school days.
3. i need to practise piano.
i dont want to do hwk.

`12:14 AM__;

Thursday, February 22, 2007

i have typed out 365 posts before this. and have been using the same blogskin since day1. i.e. 30112004. movie under the REAL stars tmr i hope. hahaha.

anyway, i think im going back to my iliketokeepquiet&observe self. my moodiness is coming back. esp ytd, it went really off. but there were alot f kind observant souls who noticed it and .. it makes me feel bad. =/

cny was good really. i actually camwhored on the first day, had most of the pics taken with erjie. heh. and ive won money in the first 2 days. it was the most i've ever won. in fact it was like almost 8x the most i have ever won. felt like my luckiest year (: (its really not a huge sum. i've just been really unlucky the past few years) i decided not to gamble anymre in case i might start losing my winnings. hehehe. anw i seriously need to save money! i spent s much today. i feel so guilty. ._.

ok wait, first night, i slept a 6am. 2nd day, i woke up at 2 to visit somemore, (we wer spposed to be at that house at 1.30 -.-") then i left for titi's house. played playstation -.-" , blackjack, watched abit of the funny hotchick. hahahahha x) and then i left at 11. jasmine's dad sent me home and i played somemore at home and slept at 545am. hhehehhe.

then 3rd day, wahbiang. i got dragged out of bed and had an unpleasant &boring visit to someone's place. i spent most of the time zzZZz and ... then i napped from 7-10+ at home. after that i didnt feel likesleeping though i was tired. but i stayed up till 4 that night, and i woke upat 710 ytd -.-" but i managed to make it to school on time. :D i slept in like 3 of my lessons though.. and was feeling dead tired and very moody around everyone. i didnt quite understand why but it was just grrrr. and for trg, i ended up not doing hard cos my legs were hurting in warm up but had to do 3 rounds of the girls route instead. i thought it was weird since he was asking me to jog 9.9km thogh myleg was hurting. but i felt bad qsning him and i was kinda dying to do a long run cos imissed long runs very much so i did it.

it wasnt boring at all. running girls route x 3. in fact, i was quite happy. training in MR again.. but i missed northern route themost. i miss long runs like mad. my run ytd was also rather annoying cos i could go faster but my legs were hurting throughout plus he asked me to go slow. it hurt less when i go slow but.. bleah. it was still a horribly slow&painful but a good long run. i feel so attached to mac ritchie. -.-"

haha then i came home that night, had dinner, showered, crashed at 9 on the sofa, woke up t 11, walked to my bed, switched off the comp and crashed. today i woke up earlier than usual! slept more, but i was still tired. dying in all my lessons and breaks. ended up styingback with teo. didnt go gym, finally did some work but i only did 4 qsns of chem. -.-"

i have an awful feeling inside of me. like one part of it wants to get ot of everything, i jus want to keep on running and running and running.. imiss 12km runs. i miss being able to run. pe jogging is just crap. and today i go home, my left heel (the longer leg) was hurting and STILL hurting. my calf and quarts + ham/hemstrings are hurting also. UGHHH. tmr i shall cycle. sat, i shall run that race. i need to gauge. and though i knw i should avoid running for now, the long run ytd kind of taught me to be more tolerant of the pain when i run. i gess i kind of sound desperate to run.. but now piano needs to come first. i want to sleep.

`7:41 PM__;

Saturday, February 17, 2007

grr dunno why, i was forced to changeto te new blogger, while some of my friends didnt need to. i signed into the old one and couldnt create a new post until i started the new one. -.- then now i cant upload photos.. :( oh well. no biggy.

i had an interesting valentine's day. i actually ponned chem so that i could give people stuff. -.-" andi ran out of choc befoe training started. -.- oh well. i eventually went for training, and hd a rather interesting class dinner at holland v. so many other familiar faces there. and i've decided, i'll not go out afte sch nex week if i have to spend money. (other than for transport) and i WILL NOT ever go hollnd v anytime soon. im sick of waiting for 970 at night. -.- i came home with the only roses and no other flowers that day, and it wasthe most i ever received compared to sec school. and the reactions from my parents were rather humurous. hahaha.

ihad an og outing ytd. bumped into tiff and shawn there at marina square. wehad dinner at the food court there and then we watched ghost rider ... i didnt know it was a marvel comic. pretty similar to daredevil & spiderman. like.. it started out with during one fateful day, something happened to some person. he then becomes a special person, has to deal with some villain, and goes through obstacles before they can end up well with their lover. lol. but i think spiderman's the best among the 3 though. x) spiderman 3 coming upthis year! and i wanna watch norbit, and this movie with hugh grant and drew barrymore. cant rmb whats it called but its got to do with song & lyrics. we didnt do much on the whole, but i kinda had a good time anyway. :) nice to see a bigger group of us together than just the same few.. i didnt get home till 1220am -.-"

anw, chinese new year starts tmr. ... dont feel in the mood for it though. all th new year stuff and angpaos... hmm. but i look forward to seeing my relatives again. (: nice to see them yearly. but it just seems like ytd when i last visited them. lol. time flies by so fast. =/

`11:33 PM__;

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

okay, 1. Audrey, 2. my weird leg, 3. school. (not chronologically..)

i shall start off with...... my weird leg! today i went to see the correct doc, FINALLY. but he didnt ask me to stop running, instead, he said just cut my trainings by half! which is not really possible for long runs.. but nvm. i think i'll just stick to cycling and watching weird sceneries at the school gym. -.- he suggested water running too, since its the closest thing to running, but.. it sounds so eoirghoiwhtojrey.
bah.
and, i did an ultrasound scan on my leg, like how mothers can see their foetus!! then my leg looked damn cool ok (it was in black and white but..!!!) i saw this thing which he said is like 1.5mm of fluid which is not good and ....
and he also came to a conclusion that my left leg IS longer than my right leg. by about 0.75cm but thats not very accurate.

oh ya. my piano exam is on 26th march. woeigtir35ujy0u530y50ytAAAHHHH. i'm going to survive it. I HAVE TO! MUST PASS. and i got piano tmr, i havent really practised. X_X

i forgot what i wanted to blog about school. yes - cockcroach bread. ugh. nvm. but i'm glad to say that alot of mg girls are coming to ac. esp a few good friends and more b2 people. :DD:D::DD:D im damn happy. but i dont know why ah, they know about whats going on in ac more than i do okay. i feel so.. unaware of everything. and my classmate refuses totell me much cos she says she doesnt want to corrupt my innocent mind. -.-

okay, now for the big big big big thing -AUDREY! BUT FIRST, YOU MUST SEE OUR CONVO LAST NIGHT. HAHHAHAHA.

at 10+ pm i was thinking about my o level results and i had this sudden urge to smsthe teachers i didnt hug/thank on friday to thank them for allthey did. so i did for physics and geog. as for math, i idnt have my techer's no. so i asked audrey for it. at the same ime, i was wondering if it was oo late to sms my teachers.. but i couldnt really care.
.... aftera while,my geog and phy teacher replied me then i told audrey.

(11:07 PM) # me: hehehe you know what
(11:07 PM) # me: i think ourmathteachersname is sleeping
(11:07 PM) # me: thatmathteachersname didnt reply me
(11:07 PM) # me: LOL
(11:07 PM) EvWhores: HAHAHAHA I TOLD U
(11:07 PM) EvWhores: U SEE U DISTURB MY HONEY FOR WAD
(11:07 PM) # me: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
(11:07 PM) # me: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

went to see her off at the airport today, with mellee, melpok, jo, jamie.. gosh ah.. the amount of money i spend of taxi fares just for audrey really makes my heart damn pain ok. but its like AUDREY! MS VULGAR! so ya im tryin to convince myself its all worth it... =/ hehehhe. surprisingly, i met quite a no. of familiar faces at the airport. and those i havent seen snce pri school, and a few ac people. and went through a rather embarrassing situation near the control station in changi mrt. -.-

took loads of photos. and i went on a sugar high today in school, at te airport, in the train... i hope it doesnt happen again. -.-" but anyway, i actually like these after-olevel minib2 reunions, i actually feel closer to my classmates than before?? :D and now i shall present all the photos we took for aud, and with aud. XD

+++8pm 13022007 tues,

aiya you know what. i cant upload photos eversince i switched to this new blogger. (it didnt let me sign back in to old blogger). grrr this blogger uploadphoto thing is pmsing. UGGHHH. when it stops its bloodflow i shall post them wonderful photos up! x) and also one from Xcountry last wed, plus class photo. i'm so sad, my lover cat is leaving FOR RJ. she declared her love for me on my arm today so that i wouldnt fall asleep during lecture. and whoa, i was so touched and yet so sad i had to wash it off before piano lesson at 4:30. -.- aiya i didnt take photo of it. but it just roughly says we;re perfect together, tricia my valentine, i love you too. and her signing her name off with hearts. and writing a sch cheer. awwww. there goes another good friend to rj. and i cant make it there. they only accept 4 AND ONLY 4 points. i dont intend to go there anymore anyway.
----- my lover, but at the same time, we're straight people okay. (:

i got a math test tmr. and i need to study for it. for like.. 10min max i hope.

`1:06 AM__;

Sunday, February 11, 2007

somehow, i have this feeling that i shouldnt blog. and i dont really lke some people to know what i blog about but.. i'm too lazy to write in a diary ad i dont know how to lock this thing to make it private. aiya i'm also not really hiding anything. but even i were really hiding something. i wouldnt blog about it. anyway, this is gonna be a LONG entry. hahahahhaa. dnt think anyone could be bothered to read it.

anyway. alot has been hppening but i cant rmb what i want to say.
but now, the big thing's just O LEVEL RESULTS.
oh ok i rmb what other big thing happened.
i lied to ______.
and, on another completely different matter, i feel like i know about things i shouldnt know.
and i get this guilty feeling i shouldnt get too involved. i dont want to become an arrogant horrible bitch!!! :'(

heh i slept at 5am on thursday, and i played cardsbefore that. hahaaha. ok its not that funny. but what happened wasquite amusing to me lah. then i came to sch late, blahblahblah, TIFF CRASHED AC. i got caught talking to her during the lecture.. -.-" (it was a completely useless lecture btw, so many ppl ponned.) the lectures and tutorials were like.. nothing much really. in chinese she gave us a worksheet we didnt complete, chem lecture was history offdiscovery of this greek guy and the atomic structure. and chem tutorial, the teacher just chatted with us. then i ended at 1010..

i thought it'd bequite useless to reach mg early but heck lah, everyone was dismissed at 1030, i got to mg at 11+ with tiff, viclim, and yihui, chatted with people, checked out the cool&amazing POPULAR bookshop which now sells MANGA!!! =O, and err i forgot what else. i also rmb seeing mrs low near the stairs, knowin that alot of peope in my class got distinctions for chem, i was fretting over how i really wanted an a1 for chem and i was feeling DAMN SCARED cause i got my first a2 in prelims and wasnt sure if i'd do just as bad for o's.
1215pm, there was worship. i had this feeling if i got poor results i'd feel damn bad i didnt go for worship. cause you know, worship would give me some assurance in some way. heh.

but anyway, i was planning to go for worship late cause i was waiting for amanda to do up audrey's present. but they ended before we finished doing her present. -.-" and before i knew it, it was 2.15pm. gosh, time flew by SO DAMN FAST and then as we all entered the hall, ..... there were already people in tears.
then, they started showing the powerpoint slides on everything and etc, how mg did really well, and how i was really hoping to get an a1 for geog since like 92+% got distinctions and no one got below b3. and then there's teo who got all crazy when she found out 100% passes in amath. hahahaha her reaction was like those kind of crazy woman but ... we were getting results, i cant blame anyone for being crazy.

and.. during the powerpoint slide showing of the alotofa1s people.. i was just grasping on to my friend's hand playing with her fingers and etc and ughh!!! i couldnt pay attention to the briefing on how to apply for JAE, i was on the verge of tearing without knowing anyhing. and then. the teachers came up front, miss teo actually said tricia did quite well. AND I REALLY HAD NO IDEA WHAT SHE MEANT BY THAT. SERIOUSLY. her quite well may not be my quite well.
then one by one the first few collected their results, and it reached my turn real soon since i'm reg no5. and when it came to me, she said "tricia youdid quite well" and she was smiling, "you'll really want to hug the both of us (mrling&her)" i think she said something like that. and then i was still speechless, i just wanted to collect my thing and look at it.. and she said, "single digit," i immediately started tearing "you got _!" and i just burst.

you know, right after o's ended, i rmb thinking of possible score i might get, of course, being optimistic, i started thinking about the likelihood of getting 10 or 9 or 8 or 7. then i rmb how weird chem, physics and lit were. and how i got a headache before geog mcq and that it wasnt that okay. then i started thinking about the likelihood of getting abve 12 and not making into ac and etc.. and theni stopped thinking about results after nov andgot anime crazy in dec. and i topped thinking about how i'd do for O's before the last week of O's ended until ytd.
and honestly speaking, i didnt get all jittery and worried until i entered te hall. i rmb alst year i could sense the tension when te seniors were getting their results. it was just the same this year. but really i didnt feel worried at all until i went in the hall. and maybe cos i also could keep my mind occupied on other stuf like audrey's present.. (i'll post up its picture!)

but i knew, if i did well, i can understand its cos i worked harder than ever, but really not as hard as i could have. lol. i actually did tys on my own (for chem, 1 amathpaper, physics, geog, ss, other sch lit papers) and i think that was the only extra bit i did compared to other exams heh.) and if i didnt do well, i can also understand cos i watched about 30min of anime everyday, goong, changed my study schedule dunno how many times cos i was behind.
and my mum, was soworried because there were nighs when i didtn sleep at all, and other nightS when i studied till 4am and couldnt sleep till 7am and woke up at 8am to go to school.. and i rmb studyng till 7+ and waking up at 11am to go to school once.

how screwd my sleeping time was.. how i studied on my bed, did work on my bed, study until i fell asleep on my bed. i mea like, seeing my horribile study method, rememberin how my dad said that i dont read widely enough.. i'm kind of like bragging now. but im very very very thankful for what i got. and ms teo actually messaged my mum that she was very happy for me. and i'm also reallly grateful to all my teachers. (cos i really approached every single one of them except for laoshi, but lao shi is also damn nice.) i even hugged mrs low and miss teo. and i think, tuition is really unnecessary. i just did everything my teacher told me to do and find time to approach them whenever help's needed. but the subject i got lowest for is the one i had tuition for. -.-"

but, i'm not as happy asi think i should.. i'm really very happy with my results, elated at hw i did for about all y subjects (esp for eng, geog and quite for chem, phys and sslit), happy for my friends... and is like, when i see a friend who's really happy with her results, i just feel like hugging her and cry along with her. but knowing when some friends couldnt get what the want, or some who couldnt stay in ac.. it just completely destroys my whole mood. and i felt that it'd be like a sin just to feel happy. i'm really hoping vey much for one of my friends to stay in ac.

anyway. today i ad a race, was planning to wake up at 12. but my dad disturbed me and came next to me at 11+.. cant really rmb what he said cos i was still abit zzz but i rmb he's really happy im the first in the family t beat his score and he;d really love for me to go to rj.
... rj. i'm not that smart really.
i rmb actually wanting to go to rj and now.. knowing that i actuall got chance of getting in (though i cant get 4points afterbonus..), it really makes me want to consider. i actually forgot i had chance of getting in lah, but.. i think i wont want t go there. i'm quite stuck on ac already.. and i'm too happy enjoying how near it is to home. i mean like, waiting for 970 and the bus ride is already quite annoying.. rj will be damn far and the bus stop is even further lah. -.- though theres still that miserable 2% chance of actally goin there.

and theres this thing about - i can now take 4H2s. omg. thats crazy lah. if i go rj i have to take 4 h2s. i think i dont ever want to do physics lab. and then econs.. i think i'll just let myself fail for a while but I HAVE TO BUCK Up. i still dont know how to apply it lah. then im actually considering geog again cos i did get my a1 but then.. human geog is like X_X! i only remembered population and only population from human geog. aiya i'll prob jut end up with the same combi lah.

then today after the race, i changed and got sent to school for NOL. and.. since there was reunion dinner after that, i wore something less sloppy. AND.., MY FRIENDS COULDNT RECOGNISE ME WHEN ALL I DID WAS WEAR something i would when i go out to movies. and i didnt even put any nice earrings or etc. -.- and like one person said, that she oesnt think i'm a tomboy anymore.. and anothe person said. i looked like a ___-.- grrr. anw no biggy, i left quite soon after for reunion dinner, the meal was alright.. and aiya nothing much to say already lah.
but i think i got something elsetosay though i cant rmb what. oh ya, i'll post another entry with pics for what we dd for audrey! its damn funny.. people thought amanda was a guy, -.-" and then i told someone this is my boyfriend, (pointing to amnda), and that person was convinced. -.-" and then when that person found out amanda's a she, she asked when did i become les. -.-''''''''

oky i'm talking alotof random things now. i shall go off to sleep. tmr im gonnaget new specs frame! (: and i think i might try to do some work. and WILL practise piano (my exam is on 26th march - monday 3:59pm. =/) okok goodnight.

`1:55 AM__;

Monday, February 05, 2007

this post has things stated from present to past. you may choose to start reading from the bottom to read it in chronological order. hahaha. (btw, i slept very well over the weekend! about 12 hours on fri & sat night Each! :D)

today, i felt rather scared about going for trg. true enough, my leg started hurting before i completed 2 rouds of warm up. bt it ddnt feel as bad as last week's. i'mquite glad i did the workout today.. but i'm still scared that if i continue running before it fully recovers, something bad might happen. PLUS, interhouse Xcountry's gonna be at turf city this wed. TURF CITY!!! WHOOO! the ground is so rough. and. iamSOexcited. ha.ha.ha.

on sunday, i went to the gym in place of training. cycling machine wasnt working so i went to swim for about an hour. quite shiok. :) then, i went to pam's house where 7 of us 1sa6 people gathered to watch sg vs thai in her home theatre. whooaaa (for her house, and the game). SINGAPORE WON! :D

on saturday,
mini-b2 gathering, geraldine, mellee, melpok, amanda, tiff, aud and i.
surprise farewell for aud, aka miss vulgar with the LIVE PERFORMANCE OF..

EVANSWHATEVER!! haha, i had the role of being a supporting fan of the evanescence copycats.. but really, CHECK OUT THE GARBAGEBAG BAND! :D

group photo. (3 ac, 3 pj, 1 rj, 1 going auss)

WE LOVE YOU audreyy. :))
that day, we shared our jcs mass dances, talked about school, and everything. we actually had more to talk about than we did before.. (or maybe cos i was to serious during o level period, i felt too lazy to talk other than asking about school work. -.-") we also watched hard candy - which was pointless, boring, and quite sick. and we also took photos.. (as shown above. :D) i'll be seeing them again this fri whn we get our results. :S

SJI class bbq on friday.

here i am, rising from the dead while tessa tries to be super woman, and justine makes a face.

joleen (my queen) & i (her villager)

at the school gym with yihui teo last week, ASICS THE BEST! :D:D

less than 4 days ago, i visited a friend's blog. and felt like.. i really meant nothing to her. =/ she was the kind i'd thought would be my friend for life. but i guess not. even if i continue to cherish our friendship, it'll be pointless if she really cant be bothered. oh well, giving isnt about getting something in return anyway. i just hope shes happy where she is now and that we'll still be able to keep in touch even as we grow older. (: oh well, life goes on. .__.

i completely stayed up for nothing lah. i was waiting for somebody to come online to send me something.. and now its not working. -.- and stupid me just realised that that somebody can just send to me via email. X_X

`11:33 PM__;

Saturday, February 03, 2007

i dont know what to do.
its like in one day, BOOM, my whole schedule (including weekends) are booked. poot. i shall make time for piano and sch work over the wknd.

school has been fun, nice, good, tiring, dotdotdot. i still cant pay attention in econs and everything else is so far quite ok. i just really REALLY need to save money.
and i feel myself becoming a worse person. and i'm not really doing anything about it. and i dont know why it doesnt really matter when i think it should.

school has been awkward. and i've witnessed a friend become a bitch.
anyway, i spoke to a few oter crossies today, i dont thnk my leg injury is that bad. it prob just needs more rest. and my mind is probably more able to endure more than my body can. so when i try to run like the past, my mind feels fine, but my body just isnt fit enough for it yet.

my classmaes have been falling sick. and its not even a month i think i'm going to be sick again. :( when i leavejc i'm gona be so depressed thinking about how many chances of running i missed because i was sick/injured.

ok i'm really pooped now. i shall go put the thing on my leg and zzz. I'M SO HAPPY I CAN WAKE UP LATE TMR. i must wake up before 12pm. but .. :D! i'm going to sleep well today.

`12:44 AM__;

Thursday, February 01, 2007

:(:(:( i think i'm injured. ok, i dont think. i AM injured.
and have to get used to th ac gym. TT_TT. cycling is so BORRINGGG.
and there's long run tmr!!! :( :( :(

today i stayed in sch till 6+, then went to AH where i spent about 15mins of seeing dr, registering, getting medication, ___mins of waiting. and $_ that makes me feel extra depressed/frustrated.

this sucks. when i heard im not suppsoed to run for 2 weeks, i was quite sad. but... aiya nvm.
anw, i think i'll just continue everything as per normal, go for trg and do annoying gym work and do pe... i'm supposed to go for bone scan on thurs during school hours. so troublesome, but my mum, who's obviously right, says that i have only a pair of legs, if i dont do it, i might just lose them. i dont really want to show my mc, but i'll tell mr ang about it.

yes. both my legs are injured. near the same area but different spots.

and on top of that, i'm pissed off with a super idiot.
AND, i'll be glad to announce that i have good friends in ac so life in ac is not bad. :)

but right now, i'm just feeling really sad. (though the past few days hav been fun -and so has watching sg vs thai at the natl stadium, so happening! :D)

on a lighter note, i thik i'm getting my o level results on monday. or next friday. . . . . . . ......

`8:47 PM__;