maple leaves.

Friday, January 26, 2007

i'm feeling rather nostalgic now. and it feels like all the socialising is going to start to die down in a while.. and soon, i'll be the same, i-stone&sleep&sneeze person again. i have a race tmr, i dont know what to feel about it. but it'll be bad to say that i am excited because i cantwait to see how much slower i am now. boooooooo. i shall just run, and try to run it as well as i can. enough said.

i was just looking through some pictures of 2006, i actually do miss some annoyingly nice friends. hahaha. (: but anw, my current class in ac is pretty nice. people are hardworking and lazy, so theres no problemfor me if i want to slack, or do work. hahahaha. XD

miss vulgar is leaving on the 12/2/2007. i am goig to miss her.
i really really like this friend alot. she has been my seating partner for about 1.5 years during sec 3-4. and i really appreciate the tolerance she has for me despite my horrible moodswings and impatience. she rocks. i have never seen her get pissed off at me at all. her personality - kind of rocks. shes so screwed up in the head man, hahahahha. she seems so quiet and innocent, but theres crazy person hidden within! all the weird and dirty thoughts in her head that she talks about, ooh how i miss her so.

cross, cross. cross, cross, cross, cross. i like cross country. i love cross country. but i have to admit, i need alot of time to improve.

my dear friend in rj, i miss you so. i miss ranting out rubbish to you on msn. how weird, that the next time we'll meet will be during a race -tmr. each of us representing different schools. BOOHOOOO. i want to give you a present and a hug. i dont want to only see you at races. TT_TT WAHHH. and then theres the colection of O level results - 05022007. and MG's founders day 25072007. boooooo.

`11:35 PM__;

Thursday, January 25, 2007

this entry is about myself. anyone who reads it might think i give myself too much credit. ha.ha.ha.
nobody scares me more than myself.
nobody confuses me more than i do
nobody knows me better than i do.

yet, sometimes it seems like i dont know myself. i do things that my mind doesnt want me to do. but i still do it. mind vs heart conflict. but if i'm able to make such a conclusion about myself, doesnt it mean i know myself toO? grr.

sometimes i think i am very stupid. because of my clumsiness/carelessnes and so on.
i thought i corrected that last year while trying to prepare for math o levels but apparently, that was temporary. when im clumsy, i'll be careless too. they're just the same, i'm like that because my mind wasnt aware/alert on what was going on.

i fell down at turf city ytd during WARM UP. -.- the ground felt as hard as the uneven rough surfaced road, but where i fell seemed muddy/sandy/rough. i have booboos on each knee, and a small cut on my right palm. but both my palms still hurt. they dont look that bad really, but yihui says my skin is raw, which is supposedly quite bad and i'm bleeding inside though i cant see it.

and speaking of clumsiness, today i was walking next to the sinks at the canteen and tripped on the black mats on the floor by the sink and my friend started laughing at me like i'm really an idiot! BECAUSE, the black mats were placed that so that people wouldnt slip when the floor s wet but here i am tripping over the mat. -.- totally defeats the purpose of the mat ok!

i have a horrible character. but i always tell people that im a nice person :D, but not that nice. haha. i was just recollecting the past year during the study period. i lost my patience when some people kept asking me help cos i couldnt do my work as fast as i wanted to. but yet i think i am a helpful person. hahahaha. but i'm onlyhelpful if i have the time. i helped teo with chem on tues, and i realised that about myself. i had successfully helped her understand it better. and i didnt even lose my patience despite how i felt she couldnt get the simplest things.

but no, my dear friend yi hui isnt stupid. shes just not good with the mole concept. i cant get lit the way she gets it. and im sure she understands econs better than ido. so its just as fair. also, i realise i dont understand alot of things in chem and math, there were somethings i couldnt explain to her about (cos they never asked that kind of qsns in o levels) but i still know how to do it. i dont question rules about a certain thing. if its like that, it is like that, and just continue to apply it like that. and i dont bother asking why. because i find joy in getting the correct ans without even caring or knowing about why im doing this for. this is why i am stupid.

or maybe i am very smart, just that i see things with a different point of view. stupidity is relative, so is smart-ness.

and to add on to my horrible character, i am a lazy person. i am a hypocrite. my mind says i want to be harworking. compared to my class, im one of the non-lazy few. compared to those taking 4 H2s, i'm lazy. -.- this puts me in the middle. :D and then there are seniors who say, ENJOY FIRST 3 MONTHS, dont do tutorials, pon lectures, dot dot dot. and then there are als those who say, they regretted playnig too much. ok. i am a kiasu freak. really. as lazy as i can be, procastinating rubbish, i really dont like to miss out on lessons even if the likelihood of me falling asleep/not paying attention is above 85%.

i spent the past 48 hours wondering and learning about myself. and the people i've been mixing with lately. since its still the first week with classes, i'm still getting to know my classmates. and when i meet new people, i learn about their unique/interesting characters. and some of them, they tell me about their impression of me on the first few meetings. sorry my brain is nt thinking right so i think my phrasing sounds abit off. anyway, it surprises me on how so many can say," OOH I LIKE YOUR DIMPLE ITS SO DEEP" and then one person comes up and has a failed attempt on putting her finger on this hole on mycheek which suddenly disappears when i stop smiling. and there are QUITE A FEW, who make a big deal out of every single face expression i make. and i realise they dont do it to other people.

so i asked a teo what she thought of the face expressions i make. i mean like, doesnt everyone make face expressions too?! and i learnt from her, and my sisters, that i have a very animated face, very expressive. i am a cartoon. and when i have nothing on my face, my friends assume that i am being dao. -.-" i prob watch too much cartoons i guess, hehehe, but when i was young i liked to make funny faces. no matter.

but you know what, everyone has a different point of view, so its alright. nobody sees everything with the same perspective. but alot do have some POVs in common. here's another thing. i have friends who comment on how people look, like this girl is very pretty, and alot of eople agree. but you know what, i dont. whereas i can also say the same for another person, but the whole world does not agree. but i find it most of the time that i am a part of the minority. i cant see things the way they do.

and here's te worst part. this week, i have difficulty falling asleepppppppppp. IT IS SO ANNOYING, i am tired, and yet i cant sleep when i lie in bed anymore. my insomnia is bacK! ughh. i think next week i'm going tostart falling asleep during tutorials/lectures. and im kind of getting used to this exercising-everyday-except-sunday thing. race on sat, teo and i are too ashamed to show our faces in front of mr q. but i feel that i should be more ashamed, because i still suck horribly. T_T

my friend didnt believe me when i told her i cant run. i realy cant run properly, mr ang keeps correcting my arm swing and my posture. its abit tough t adjust cos im not used to it, but eventually i will. :) anw, i watched a rugby match today! AC vs NTU, it was the first rugby match i ever watched, and i found it interestingly odd.

i am quite happy, for i have managed to give brenda, my first best friend in mg, and still my close good friend (though i admit we have drifted apart but we're still close!) a proper farewell hug. and i gave her the little nice present i've been dying to give her since christmas. -.-" cos after trg, i pian pian went to find her (at her reative's house she wasvisiting) just to give her that hug and a present. i couldnt give it to her today cos i was too guai to pon school. -.-"
and if you, my dear reader, have successfully read every single word in this entry bothering to let every single sentence register into your head, i respect you very very much, and also feel sorryfor the time you have wasted in doing so.

`10:52 PM__;

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ntTESfwZGyg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d7cjoDJDbbY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z7gDRxp724Y

oooh lalaaaa... its really whoaa! ive been influenced by my dajie to find gymnastics really NICE TO WATCH! :D:D yesyes and im sure you'll find it just as breathtaking. just that sometimes the flexibility is really scary.

hahaha ok. it feels good to be not sick! (: but i realised today i havent fully recovered. -.-" and im starting to sleep late again.. unintentionally. okok tmr, i'll try to sleep by 12. i had a good trg on mon. but somehow my stomach muscles were hurting really badly in between. i prob didnt eat enough so it started burning off my muscle. (from what i hear ppl tell me.) ooof. then i felt so tired to do any physical activity todayy. oh ya, i tried the wonton noodles in sch today. not bad but $2 is so... ......... i miss the cheap-ness of mg food.

school's been alright, my class seems to get along quite well. (: stayed back in sch today with teo to do work. (and i was also dragged to go to the gym with her.) quite productive! i am contented. i just really need tosit down and read up econs. its soooo... i dont know. i need to increase my attention span. i realise after a while i dont hear the teacher talk when he/she continues talking on and on and on and nothing really enters my head. -.-"

last night i felt rather comforted. my dad said he died at econs for the first few months before he finally grasped the concept. HOWEVER, if it took him 3-4 months, it'll most prob take me even longer. booo.

`11:43 PM__;

Saturday, January 20, 2007

some memorable quotes from teachers of ac.
"geography makes my heart beat"

"roses are red,
violets are blue,
sugar is sweet
and so are you!

the roses have withered
the violets are now dead
the sugar bowl's empty
and so is your head"

"if you dont study for promos you sure GG"
"i will SPAM you with homework"

hahahahahahaha. this week, i've learnt about some people, i've learnt to accept myself more. i've learnt alot of different things. i've learnt that no matter how we all can say that life is unpredictable, we all dont know whats going to happen next. i learnt my mum's interestingly weird story of how my parents eventually got married. i've learnt its better to work at something than have nothing to do in life. whereas in my running, its just hard now. its an indescribable struggle. yet, its also been good because i like the new experience. i actually ran for almost 1.5hr ytd when i was supposed to skip trg to rest. =X (felt so tempted to do the long run) now i just need to be patient. i'm taking a break over the weekend, till i fully recover, and i need to do homework. poo.

today my mum asked me what will i do if i dont get into a jc? and i said, like how i always deal with my stupid problems, "it'll be the end of the world for me for about a week, and then i'll start to do something about it." life's been really frustrating, but i cant stop. and i cant deny the good things that have happened either. it really makes me want to sigh. but its not like i really can get anything out of sighing anyway.

`7:48 PM__;

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

thought i should brighten up the prev entry with some og pictures.

this last pic is what they call UNGLAM. i dont know why but i think its quite a funny picture. i burst out laughing when she took the photo.

`8:01 PM__;

its annoying. everytime training ends i feel like pure shit.
so why did i even train today?!
guilty conscience.
but shit, i'm sick, AGAIN. so why did i even train knowing i'm going to suck?!

i'm committedto running. no matter howlousy i am, i dont like missing any chance to run.
but ive been advised to really go rest till im completely healed. and they have long run on friday i want to go!!! :(

today's trg was worse than monday's. the amount of greenrubbish congested within me. ughhhh. sickening.
then i went back myself. thinking about how awful i am and how do i keep on going if its always like this. why did i join cross again?! i could havejust joined another cca since isuck at running anyway. but then, i dont know why i keep being so hopeful and i refuse to stop. i am contradicting myself.

im overly dependent on running. i feel like life's nothing without it now. but why is it last time i could attend every single trg and just fall sick like once in a year?! and now, i still want to attend every single training but my health just isnt good enough! i havent changed my way of life, but heck, i need to strengthen my immune system.

anyway, i got my class today. and i think its weird if we change classmates again afterfirst 3 months. hmm. i should stop blogging. i need to stop blogging. ihave t stop blogging. it makes me feel like i'm a depressed person who's always sad and thinks that life is pure shit.

but it isnt. its just the way i see things. i think, therefore i am. i think i'm lousy, i am lousy. i think i'm good, i am good. i think i'm really confusing myself, i am confusing myself.

`6:41 PM__;

Monday, January 15, 2007

this is horrible. after that 3 min hard run, i was all choked up with greenish yellow rubbish that i had to rush to the toilet to get it all out.
it was hard to get it out and my eyes turned boodshot. urgh. i felt so gross. but i thought it was actually good, cos my throat actually felt more cleared up.

i cant stand this. i'm horribly ill disciplined. and i'm still all talk without action. I HAVE TO TAKE ACTION. well i thought i did, but it didnt last. i suck. i hate everything i do to myself, why i find it so hard to make decisions. why i do this, why i do that. sometimes it gets me confused that i shouldnt even exist in the first place. i have to stop faling sick. its so annoying, i really want to get back my fitness.

and its all up to me to correct it. its all in the head. my head.

`8:43 PM__;

haha, this entry's for sarah. and people curious about my orientation. (pictures below!)
but firstly, i'll talk about the present.
ytd (saturday) morning i woke up at 7am thinking whether to go for trg because i realised my voice was COMPLETELY GONE. and i could only whisper. i wasWAY beyond hoarse man. ahhaha but in the end i didnt go for trg. :( and teo called me up after trg - she couldnt even hear what i was talking bout cos i was too soft and i was struggling to talk normally which ended up sounding like some hoarse mumbling. -.-

i've been sleeping VERY well over the weekend, alot of sleep caught up, been having dreams (which i hear is a sign of exhaustion/tiredness). i even napped ytd and today and my medicine is making me sleepy again. but i just came out of the shower so now i'm waiting fr my hair to dry.
oh ya, my new fav drink: honey lemon water. super good for the throat and i love it.

on sat, iwoke up with aching arms. today, i'm aching everywhereand i think its cos of friday. my stomach, neck, legs, arms, shoulder, pector--- something something.., and side of the back of my ribcage. poo. at least now my voice is back to being hoarse, and not soundless. (:

im thinking of getting a new frame for my specs soon. hmmmmm.
anw, ytd i went to doctor, and he says that i fall sick very often mainly due to some allergy reaction i have because of my nose. (which explains why i sneeze so frequently) poo, must really eat healthy man.

okok orientation. lasted from wed to sat. on wed-fri, we had boring talks which were followed after by recess mass rallies at around 0930 each day. we just played alot of games under the BURNING HOT SUN. hahaha got dirty rolling in the mud, water bombed, and had to learn mass dance which i ended up loving very much.

poo, i realise i'm just giving a brief summary of everyhing that happened. hahaha. my OG was quite dead lah, andi was so worried cos we were not interacting with one another enough. and my OG seems to be the only OG iknow with the least guys. cos mostof them are like 10 girls 10 boys, or 12 and 8. but mine is like 14and 6 hahhahaha gt alot of girl power ok! my OGLs are great people, very sociable, nice, not unkind, not mean, not biased or anything. and they're funny too!

luckily on the 4th day, our whole OG got to talk with one another more, so i didnt feel so scared about having an anti-social dead OG. and you know what, 6 PPL IN MY OG ARE BORN IN NOVEMBER including yours truly. HOW COOL IS THAT! bahahahhaha. and 3 in july and a few in may, and theres one 31st may and 1st june and alot of bdays very close to someone else's which really whoa. hahahah. my ogls are from acsi and mgs. the acsi one right, is actually one of the mg chem teacher's son who taught me for the first term in sec 3. and he's super tall. then themgs one, i never saw her in sch before. ok, in my og, there are 2 from mgs, 2 ac barker, 2 fairfield, 2 crescent, 2 river valley, 1 st theresa, 1 ijtp, 1 st nick's, 1 katong convent?, 1 nanhua, 1 sji, 1 acsi, 1 new town, 1 cedar, 1scgs.

and i have successfully made friends with them all. :D::DD:D actually i won talk much about what we did. we just spent alot of time playing dumb fun games, learning abit about the school, cheering alot, drinking TONS of water and not feel bloated, getting really dirty, having alot of fun and laughter, doing stupid forfeits, dancing, knowing eachother, and getting a good brown tan (which is already slowly disappearing since its been raining quite abit).

on our last day, we played 3 games only, and i rmb the one with shaving cream. omg that was damn hilarious, all our faces had shaving cream on it AN DI DONT HAVE THE PHOTO. T_T anw, after the games we had cca exhibition and then we had took group photo, had mass rally and prepared for our OG outing! whoa, it was super undecided lah, we intended to go vivo and play at the rooftop which was changed to marina square's seoul garden. it was empty, and we had a great but short time taking stupid photos cos we spent most of the time eating and talking in the restaurant and efore you know it, we had to hurry take photos and go back. i'll put up the photos later.

then after that we hd campfire. took along time to start on, but it was good, watched the acjc dance which was damn PRO, i really cant wait to start hip hop lessons but i think i'll be starting after my piano exam ends. i really ned to practise. i kinda wanted to join dance but trg's 4 x a week so i didnt in the end. then there were mascots performing and alot of other things. theres also the bloopers about the OGLS while filming the story of our orientation. we are split into 4 clans, earfalus (my clan representing earth), erif (fire spelt backwards hahaha), saralonde (water) and aldaron (air i think). each clan has about 12 OGs with about 20 people. our cohort has 955 ppl i think. then there were alot of things goig on i suddenly cant rmb hahaha there was that playing of some cute dance thing where we had to keep switching partners and then mass dance.

we ended of with a rayer i think? and then they kept playing hte mass dance over and over again and some other songs where ppl just danced randomly to. but they played the mas dance again hahaha and there were alot of people who didnt stop dancing. its like, you dance until yu're exhausted, but when you hear the music again, you just automatically dance to it like a robot. and its damnnnnnn fun. then we took another group photo and i took mrt back, reached home at 11+.

over the week we've been having introductory lectures and othr talks. we started our first lectures on friday. have been and will be hanging around with my og till next fri i think, cos ater that week we'll be in our classes already.. =/ but anw, at least my OG's not o dead, but we seemed to have been split into 2 groups and there's already stupid gossip passing around which is quite funny in a way, but i just hope that it doesnt turn into something big.

here's my OG, click on it for larger view. missing out junjie (ogl), grace, rushan & matthew. top row: samantha, bing hua, hygin, marc. middle row: lesley, yi qi, jasmine, alice, bi ying, luqman, syahidah. bottom row: sarah, vic lim, amanda (ogl), yong ern, yours truly, bernard. hahah i think my arm looks deformed in this pic from the angle the photo was taken. hahaha.

enjoying ice cream at seoul garden! :D ok lah my bowl's been emptied alreay but it was nice! (:posing at the shops, hahaha we did alot of this and also at astroboy. we have quite a few pics of stuff like this but blogger seems to allow me to upload 5 only. -.-

after campfire, we took a group photo. we have grace and junjie in this one now. :) from left: me, hygin, binghua, marc, grace, lesley, bi ying, syahidah, junjie, luqman, jasmine, sarah, samantha, amanda. we still have missing people though. -.-"

and after everything ended, people were still dancing.

`12:09 AM__;

Friday, January 12, 2007

this is annoying. ihate rain. AND PLEASE DONT RAIN TMR MORNING!!!! i really want to run.

2 nights ago, i thought i didnt swallow y food properly and it felt like it got stuck in my throat for some time... but i think i thought wrongly.
the next day [ytd] i spent the whole day sneezing and blowing my noseaway like nobody's business. and today, i woke up, coughing and blowing out ALOT of phlegm. but i felt perfectly fine apart from the throat and nose. - anw yes, im sick again, and this is the 3rd consecutive month. gosh and i tried so hard not to get a sore throat from orientation, IM SICK LIKE THIS NOW?! grrrr.

even so, icouldnt afford to not come to sch today since theres long run and movie and first day of lectures. i stillfeel fine now. sadly, it was raining so i didnt do long run and ended up doing horid strengthening. but it wasfun. gosh, my arms are really like jelly now and i did 200 situps today! in sets of 40s. 100 annoying pushups - which i survived quite better than expected. in sets of 20. and 150 dips which werent done properly cos my arms were really jelly. all that along with 50 lunges. then we ran in he rain for a while. was damn shiok but super cold. gahh why did i have to fall sick. T_T

after training, my voice became HOARSE. and pangsai my og friend kept laughing at my horrendous voice. -.- but i feel really fine and i want to go train tmr. even if its not long run, i miss tiff, i want to give her a present, and i want to run. PLEASE DONT RAIN AT MR TMR MORNING!!

anw, i ended up taking chem econs math h1 phys. i'm super glad i'm taking chem and math!!! :D phy and econs still abit ~~. heh. i got to make sme new friends today, during freeperiod, and in training. :)

movie under the stars - 1. it wasnt under the stars. 2. it was a great movie - click. 3. i had a shock hearing my voice when i was laughing - I SOUND LIKE SHIT! 4. i really got something out of it.
in the show, this guy put his job as a higher priority to his family. and learnt hisl esson that family's most important. today or last night, my mum was telling me dont study until i forget my famly and etc. and i was thinking about running. what do i really want to pursue in running now? i seriusly have no goal and just hope to keep improving at the moment. maybe i do have sme tiny goals but yeah, i dont have a specific one for 2.4 or turf city yet within any time limit.

i rmb sacrificing holidays with my family for training. ad i still didnt get to run for the team anyway. im really not sure how much i want to compete now. i just like to run, i like to improve, i love the feeling after every training. okok i need to wake up early tmr.

`11:44 PM__;

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

grr. liar liar liar liarliar. i should occupy my mind more.
i played badminton ytd and today, my forearm hurts again.

i ran really slow today, but im aching. poo. after the hard run i realised i prob saved too much energy. i didnt feel as tired as last time and it didnt seem so bad. =X

i still dont know whether to take h1 phy or h1 econs. SUBJECT REGISTRATION TMRRRR.
my senior say try h1 phy for first 3months first, an see how i find econs.. hmmm.

and my right knee felt odd today. and the same ankle i sprained last year is starting to feel REALLY loose. =/

i dont know why, but i'm having BIBI AND BABA STUCK IN MY HEAD. i keeps ringing and ringing -BIBI AND BABA, BIBI AND BABA, BIBI AND BABA. -.-"

++edit.
orientation ended about 4days ago, but i just realised today that the sunburn on my head and left shoulder is peeling. -.- the scalp one is quite sick & it doesnt look like dandruff. they also hurt when i touched it. i know i couldnt sleep on my left side for a few days cos my shoulder and red left ear was hurting. lol. at least now the pain's gone. but GAH i should've noticed this sooner. anw, im quite sure i was more exposed to the sun and got darker during obs but my skin didnt peel nor hurt! =/

pooo. i told my dad about the shooting star, and he thinks that i saw some jet or plane or something because aparently, the speed that i saw "the shooting star" is TOO SLOW to be one. behh. that is so upsettng lah - to know tht i've been deceived. -.- i should have just kept my mouth shut and think that i saw a shooting star for the first time while walking home. BOOO. reality.

`8:30 PM__;

Monday, January 08, 2007

orientation has been fun. im really brown now, with all kinds of tan lines. -.-"
and i think i got a little too sociable with my og that now i'm scared of 2 people.

anw, i saw a shooting star last night when i was walking back home alone.
it was really pretty, and a first! esp to see it here in s'pore i got quite a shock. i was super stunned that it was too late when i tried to get my phone out to take its picture.

apart from that, i really dont know how im going to find ac. 1. its going to suck. 2. im going to survive, livea good life. 3. im going to be super dao again & be contented with what i have.

i died at training today. stomach was all weird. i felt really lousy, but yet it seemed like a goodrun. and i think i wont have any trouble sleeping tonight. but AHH, next trg at turf city. =/ ALSO, im really quite pissed with someone, i just cant stand it ALWAYS BEING an idiotic hypocrite. urghh. i shant trust that person anymore. liar liar liar.

im so busy i need to make time for piano and taking out rubbish out of my room. crap. and 4 new year resolutions: quit singlish, read newspapers, pass piano, pack room.

im so UGHH i just !!!!!! GRRR i hope people will ignore me, and i just need to shut up.

`8:23 PM__;

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

today i woke up at 330pm and this was what i saw. (you can click on it for larger view)

SHES REALLY CUTE RIGHT!!! but i have no idea how my bolster got onto the floor like that. i thought i was hugging it to sleep. -.-"

`11:11 PM__;

GAHH i cant sleep AND I HAVE TO BE IN SCHOOL IN ABOUT 26HOURS!!! crap. im going to be a zombie during myfirst day of orientation. -.-

ive had enough anime for today. i think i should sleep. but GRRR, ok. one of my new year resolutions shall be, try not to sleep after 1am.
though however, its not exactly a high priority but a necessity.
i need enough rest for sch and trg if not i'll just die or miss my stop in the train/bus!!

i've been feelin quite hungry since 12am but i'm not sure if i'm really hungry, somemore just now i saw a HUGE cockcroach on the floor i dont dare leave my room.

`5:08 AM__;

Monday, January 01, 2007

2007 has begun! & i think my phone's smses from thepast 24 hours arent getting through.

the smses i sent are all shown in my sent msgs, but theres that little symbol that shows its STILL in the process of sending msgs. -.-" and till now, my mum hasnt received the sms i sent her ytd. behhh, must be a temporary thing, i hope.

i stayed up watching movies with erjie ytd, we caught up a little bit only. but still, better than nothing. after she left i went to shower at 2am. and then i went to bed at 4? but i couldnt sleep. it was quite horrible, after a while i saw light outside the window (i.e. the sun rising), and i could hear the mrt. i guess ididnt sleep till after 6am.

while trying to sleep, i always end up thinking about some things.. and i hate how these things keep coming to my mind. its like its haunting me and i just want it to stop. maybe i'll be looking forward to my new change in life this coming month, i might be so busy the moment i lie in bed i'd immediately blackout. anw, i ended up waking up 1 hour ago. okok! i shall spend the nxt few days trying to finish up my anime on gofish.com or youtube. !!! and i'll need to practise piano too. >.<"

`4:23 PM__;