maple leaves.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

i had an amazing run today in a long time. other than the killer slopes & rocks near the walk, everything else was great. the pacing to SICC was super good. hadnt done sub21 there in 6-7months.
then coming back wasnt as fast though, was quite upset with the pri sch kids, had to zig-zag across them despite the "excuse me"s and the claps. -.- but apart from that, the run was amazing. i felt an even greater spring today. you know, the spring you get when you run normally, then when you reach the top/bottom of a slope, you get this sudden spring that keeps you going for about 5-15min or so. i used to get it throughout the whole run. that feeling is so amazing it makes me want to run again just to feel it. its similar to adrenaline rush but this one's even better. after warm down, i felt like doing another long run. =X

last night i slept for 4hours. today after i came home, i slept for 2+hours which was constantly disturbed by SOME people and.. i've done nothign since then. ahh i loveeeee long runs. ^^ cant wait for next trg at MR. :D O.o my dad's got an old RI classmate over.

`6:21 PM__;

Friday, September 29, 2006

omg i'm so pissed. tmr shall be and MUST BE the day i stop ruining it.

`9:37 PM__;

Monday, September 25, 2006

this just hit me real hard today.. i mean i always knew it but it really got into me today.

ok so it seems pretty weird. but i'm watching sgidol now. O.o omg i love mathilda. heh. anyway, i put that photo i designed in my DP, my desktop (and cleared all the icons on it) and i'll be putting it up here. :) hopefully, looking at it can motivate me further to do better? :) anw today i ran without reluctance. i felt real paiseh for being the last to finish. but i'm happy i ran. and now i got an exercise to do for my back! mhmm.

shall go plan my study timetable and do hwk. i cant rmb what hwk i reallly have leh. -.-" only can think of amath and physics. then the SS i abit reluctant. aiya not due tmr. should sleep early today. couldnt sleep last night..

`8:24 PM__;

Saturday, September 23, 2006

3 entries in 4 days. =/ anyway my talk with tiff yesterday was pretty funny. we spoke about something about ourselves. and the topic was not something we often spoke about.

but the talk made me realise.. i brand people. theres this girl in school. everytime i see her damned face theres this invisible label: idiotic bitch. and there are a few others.. i label them horrible names but i'd refuse to tell it to anyone. AND.. there are those.. well actually 2 or maybe 3. whom i've labelled great friends for life. and 1 unexpected character.. whom i've labelled a friend for life. a friend for life.. but not a great friend for life. we're on good terms. but we arent that close to each other. we talk to each other often enough.. but not as often as we do to our close friends. and despite the difference in our characters, i feel we actually share something in common.
but i feel horrid. its like i just label someone something cos of what she has done.. or maybe a few things without seeing the other side of them. and then its like branding them something they MAY not be. but.. to me i just assume i'm right. and thats how i'd ever feel about them no matter what they do.

oh yes. last night, i had intended to go to bed at 11 hoping to finish up teo's book on bed... until something happened. i went to bed at 12+ or 1+. -.-" finished the book today. this morning i actually woke up early and walked to that faraway bus stop feeling very excited to run! my run was not say very fast. and after 8km i didnt feel like doing +2. but i felt so guilty i decided to spend 25min on the grass. running really relaxed. =/ but my 8km today was a good run despite the slow-ness. i didnt really push myself as much i wanted to buti actually felt comfortable. it was like one min i was really slow.. then next min adrenaline rush and then slow again and then speed up. super inconsistent. but it was still good anyhow.

`12:32 PM__;

Friday, September 22, 2006

bleahhh. i very xin tonggg lehhhh.
so crappy. my chem makes me MOANNN like a freaking moaner. ok i'm at lost for words. my vocab is currently very limited. BUT I STILL XING TONG LEH. you know i didnt get a mark for not rounding 0.05 to 3 sig fig for chem. AHHH. heartbroken.
and the my ss lit moderate by 2 grades. sounds cool right. but then moderate become b3. useless. i heard i cant use affiliation for prelims. -.- i hope i can get in with my l1r5. my running record not say very good. :( and i think i'll just stick to cross though it'll be even harder trying to do super well. but how, i really love running long d.

on a lighter note, does anyone want to watch the teacher's concert on 20th Oct? first time teacher's performing!!! though sadly, one ticket is $__ and the timing is almost quite bad. but if you can get a video of the whole thing. i wont even bother about going.

oh shit i want to watch john tucker must die. HILARIOUSSSS. bloopbloopbloop. it'll take up 3 hours of my time if i just go out to the movie. cani waste that 3 hours? =/
today while running.. my left foot felt very flat. the other day it was my right. :( i'm so heart broken. and i'm almost exaggerating. but heck i want to run tmr. loveee sat trainings.

oh damn. i'm in big shit and it really stinks. i wish school hours lasted longer and that i had more free periods. our 1.5 free period today was SUPER productive for me. i focused, concentrated, AND FINISHED MY 4 GEOG QSNS. and i even helped mellee with math. good revision. :) :D though however, i was zzzz in sslit. -.-" but how can i study if i want to do both tys AND study from my book? & i'm thinking of doing it before Os start. seee. i'm so sad.

`6:44 PM__;

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Traffic light! colours rearranged though.

group photo. (:

this is supposed to be a kungfu pose but we look like we're a bunch of mad attackers apart from jamie and her flexibility. -.-

4&5!

anw that's longest day photos. we've got nerdy photos too! and congratulate me. im watching less tv and i actually did my hwk in the afternoon at home!!! first time in ages. However...
i was falling asleep as i wrote my answers.. and i started to write off line and really messily.

`7:16 PM__;

Monday, September 18, 2006

i got lazy and ended up not going for trg but thats ok. i ran ytd.
and i still havent done anything and its 5.32pm. -.-''''
but ive decided. i'll play and finish my game and pack my stuff and sleep early today. i must i must i must.. or at least. i should try to.

oh ya. hhehehehe. ytd my sisters and i bought $XXX worth of junk food from cold storage and took a taxi to travel us 600m home. -.-" parents were out.

anw got back prelims today. i think my first 3 months are considerably safe. depends how the moderation is gonna be. need to wait for it to be confirmed.
quite shocked. satisfied. alittle unhappy. and yet i still feel a little lucky. =/ my geog was pretty lucky. my chem was annoying. phys & eng were ~~ and combined humans was just =.=. and my average was 70.04..! first a2 average in my exam :D msg 2.85 i think. must be cos of my emath and the fact that my lowest was a c5 which will be moderated to a b4. (and i'm not even counting it -.-)

now i'm just wondering.. to stick or not to stick to cross. i've lost my commitment. now i just make sure i run at least twice a week. =.=

slept at 3 last night. then today. i missed my bus by about 100m. cos actally i already started running when i left the house but my knee hurt abit with my sch bag and etc. then i walked and it ried running again and it started to hurt and i just let my bus pass by. decided to just wait for the next bus. tonight must sleep by 0915.

i'm going crazy over anime. i'm not completely sick of tv but AFTER OCTOBER I'LL HAVE 3 FAV ANIME TO WATCH!!! etc. 2 shows are 30min each on mon-fri. then the other show they show 1hour every week. mhmm.

`5:37 PM__;

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i woke upat 2+today. erjie wanted me to go running iwth her.
and i agreed since its been a long time since i ran running with her.
and i forgot about the problem with my knees.

we ran for about 8+ to 9km i think, it felt good. and i suddenly wanted to..
run tomorrow. but after our run, my knees werent in a very good condition.

this is how fickle i can get. just ytd i asked myself, when was the last time i actually followed to do what i had first planned out for myself?
.......

i'm going to supermarket later. ended up not going ytd. and i havent packed my room. ohhh i should slaughter myself.

`5:14 PM__;

Saturday, September 16, 2006

i lack consistency.
and i'm consistently inconsistent. i may have been really consistent for training for 2 years but it didnt last long.
and i see myself reduced to a pathetic state cos i cant make up my mind.
i've been making alot of hasty decisions thinking it'd be for the better. they're not impusive ones.. cos i actually thoguht through it.
and then something comes along->i change my mind again->new decision.

i dont know what to do with my running. i'm trying to convince myself i'm not pathetic. and i was thinking. dont go for trng this week at all. and then come back to running again and work back at it. why the 1 week break? i need to get my mind sorted out and my physiotherapist doesnt want me to run. *BIG sigh* i'll be doing my knees some good actually.

this is like self pity man. i need to get back. i got an a2 for CHEM. AHHHHH. X_X i really freaked out when i heard it. iwas probably expecting a low a1. oh damnnnn my l1r5 is going up. 3 subjects = 4pts already! and i cant count on the rest to get anymore As. somebody beat me up please. i've never gotten lower than 80 for a chem exam. T_T but on the other hand, something tells me i deserved it. =/

anyway i think i'll see how it goes. forget my personal goal for running. i've finally managed to priortise. i dont see myself reaching my goal by the end of the year yet for now. but thats ok. this goal can be reached anytime. And O Levels has a fixed time. so i'd better work on it. After all, i havent been able to train consistently and i still see myself slower/as slow as i was in june. Now, at the most, i must make sure i go for trg EVERY SINGLE SATURDAY. i overslept again today. i hate taking taxis. i woke upat 0730. T_T i need to start being early for training again. i miss that feeling. when i walk to the bus stop far far away with an excited spirit. when i attend, training feeling so eager to run despite the little sleep, when i actually improve in training.

oh a happier note, longest day was ytd. it was FUN. but i was expecting more out of it. hehehe but i guess the committee really did a good job. :) they should have an encore of all the performances man. T_T AIYAH. i love my shirt anyhow. but i realised that its abit too big for me hehehehe like my class shirt also. but the size of the shirt laterally felt alright i thought. =/ i'm going to sleep now. later today i'll play sudoku, pack my room, read teo's book, go supermarket. =X

`11:35 AM__;

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

bahahha i'm so tired. and the bitch in sch couldnt stop bitching i felt like slapping her. but i decided to be considerate and remain ignorant.

i dont get how i can drop from a high SD to a high S and a low D with C as my 2nd highest now. -.- apparently i happened to be the only one who chose the conventional interest but i raised my hand really low cos it seemed like i was the only one (whcih i really was =/) and so he didnt see and said no one. hahaha how malu. im actually still not quite sure.
i like archaelogy leh. but i guess its not smoething i woudl want to pursue. if i wanna be an accountant i have to be really careful in my math. seeing the no. of careless mistakes is like. =.= but at least now i minus less marks for carelessness compared to last time. :)

today i had the urge to go running. so i think i dont care lah =/ i'll go for trng tmr. but if it rains. i'll get 2nd thoughts. hmm. i cant rmb what else i wanted to blog about. oh well. no matter. i'm going to bed soon.

`10:16 PM__;

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

i got my new phone and number. now i got free incoming calls. :D i think i'm gonna underuse it. but i love it now that i can hear the radio. :D

took this with my phone. they were eating durians at home. haha. (yeah i finally got the uploading thingy worked out. i never bothered to wait for the thing to say image is uploaded thats why i couldnt do it last time. lol.)

i love this effect. :D:D

my hand looks quite sick like that =/ but i can actually see my veins like this and i think the outlines are coolll. i even took my foot hahaha. but it looks like some weird science specimen. -.-" speaking of science, if you look carefully you can see the periodic table in the black background ahhahahah cos i took the photo with the back of the chem MCQ paper as the background. you'll also be able to see my human "fur" and yellow fingernails. =X oh yeah the camera's got sepia and black & white but i decided not to upload those pics due to... some reasons. =X

i'm super tireddd. i couldnt sleep on sunday night till 5+am. and then slept pretty well last night.. but i'm dying today. tongiht i'll slepe early. and i have yet to pack my bedroom. -.-" i'm thinking of doing it tmr. (procastinating again T_T but I HAVE TO AND I WILL.)

came back from physio about half an hour ago. took a taxi back cos i kept falling asleep. and i hated the driver cos he PURPOSELY took the longer way when he knew i asked to take the faster way and then the fare was so X_X. URGH. anw, i cant go for trng on thurs. :( sprints would add pressure to my knees. he said try not to run at all. :( or minimise running sessions. but i really want to run. i guess i just go on sat. do 8km. he said if i run for too long my muscles get tired and something happens. -.- urghh i was hoping to do 12km every sat. but since i wont be trg from mon-fri this week i should do 8. =/ and now my knees feel all wobbly from all that "pathetic" exercises. :( both my knees are so weak now.

i'm so tired. i got back my math marks today. improvement. quite satisfied cos now i minus less marks for carelessness. it was ALL careless mistakes. esp in paper 2. omg. but i minus 5 marks from both papers each. so all very nice numbers. :D hahaha cass was saying use to buy 4d. 7595. x) and the rest of the papers.. i'm just really uncertain.

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired.

`6:41 PM__;

Friday, September 08, 2006

so ytd i have no idea what i was doing. but anw i've got a bad habit of waking up in the afternoon for the past few days which isnt good for me. i dont want to oversleep tmr. :(

ah my dad got vouchers! i might change my phone soon! :D

last night alot of things came to my mind. and i got so upset.
i'm doing stuff that makes myself unhappy but i still do it. why? just because i want to? or i really need to and should? it is but a neccesity? =/

`4:44 PM__;

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i am soooo pissed. i was really looking forward to training today BUT i just had to ignore my alarm and sleep for 13 hours. i woke up 30min ago. well apparently the whole house decided to be nice and let me sleep till 3+pm. -.- shit and right now the internet hates me.

i cant do self run by myself. today was supposed to be sprints and the treadmill is not good for my joints. >.<" the presence of my teammates running with me actually kinda motivates me to do the workout properly. bleahhh. :( ugh. right now they're being a nuisance. i wish i could slap them but i know it'd be too rude. --.
oh well. i shall try to be productive today and do some work. maybe i'll clear up my room too? =/ hmm.

`4:19 PM__;

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

i'm angered. with myself. my nightmare has come alive and if whatever i'm trying to do doesnt work, it'll worsen. i SOO want to crash and whack my head against something.

i'm watching house of wax now. didnt get new phone yet, parents think they should get vouchers before we go. hmm. and my eyesight didnt worsen, in fact, my left eye improved. oh yeah, i completed heymath in 1hour as i watched tv. and i missed out answering 1 qsn by accident. -.-"
i need to tell myself, i hate going out. because that statement is no lie.

i cant wait for training tmr. but i wonder how i'm gonna run with my hair like that. sometimes i wish i'll fall sick right now but i dont want my running to worsen. at the stage i'm in now, i have difficulty getting back to where i was a year ago.

`10:32 PM__;

i just watched another hilarious episode of ppg. my fav show in upper pri. XD and watching the new episodes are GOOOD and tooooooooo funny. i'm glad i still enjoy watching it. :D i am sooo going to watch it everyday after O's.

anyway i'm adding another entry here because i forgot to update about some random stuff. something i spoke to my sis about ytd (sunday) in their relationship, she's lacking the sense of reassurance and he doesnt know how to give it to her, or maybe he doesnt realise it. yeah shes annoying but i realised she didnt get the the sense of reassurance which explains her behaviour. hmmm. i love being reassured. it provides the sense of security.

oh crap and i wanted to add something but i forgot what. i've come to notice the boring entries lately but bleahhhh. i'm having problems with my study time. i havent added in physio and piano into my schedules yet. >.<" and i want to watch lovewrecked and barnyard. anyone not broke, or rich enough to treat me PLEASE LET ME KNOWWW. :D if not, i'll just be patient and wait for it to come on those movie channels. i should save money anw.

i think when i take my eyesight tmr, it'll become worse. :( i need discipline and motivation badly. ughhh. and right now i have a puny ponytail and i even tied up my fringe to the side. i feel like a primary school kid. O.o

`2:12 AM__;

Monday, September 04, 2006

last night was the ultimate. i went to bed around 6am.

and today i woke up at 1, and had a weird run.
i have no idea why but i had this sudden urge to go really fast. it was meant to be a relaxed easy run but it was like the adrenaline rush, suddenly it felt like the people in front werent going fast enough and then i felt being right in front. it has been 1 year since the last time i was ahead of everyone having a good run. then i started to slow down, i wasnt too sure why but everyone overtook me in 1 minute. and i dont know how badly i slowed down but i realised that i slowed down until no one was in sight at all. but i had a relaxed run and the 4x striding felt like one of my fastest times. and i'm quite angry with myself for not being mad at myself for doing a super slow run. its like i completely lost that focus and that will to work hard. it was a total plain run. no feelings, just going slow relaxed and knowing it.

and then.. i got a haircut today. SUPER SHORT X_X. i cant do that normal hairstyle to sch anymore. i could do with a french plait or a puny ponytail and i dont like my fringe i think i'll keep it back to what it was ytd. hehehehehe. -.-" and tmr, i'll go for dental, eyecheck and new phone+number?

`10:22 PM__;

Saturday, September 02, 2006

mhmm. i'm super slacky. i shall talk about EVERYDAY from the time CHEM PAPER ENDED. i went to turf city alone. =/ couldnt find anyone else to go and cao yu last min told me couldnt make. but i still went there.. in hope of finding something for thurs. and then i realised.. yeah the stuff is nice to look at.. but it just felt odd being alone. well, it was an experience nonetheless. going to turf city with nothing in my hands and just my wallet and tissue. (i left my phone in my bag in sch -.-") and i ended up buying 2 keychains. you know those nice nice ones. XD got one for my sis and i. and after all that and commendation, went out to bugis for last min teachers' day presents and i'm proud to say that WE WERE SUCCESSFUL. got everything for every teacher but i forgot to get for my piano teacher. =/ but i'll look for something later. -.-" we spent quite alot though.

then on thurs, i looked super horrid as a pirate. i felt it but it was the closest i could get to looking like a pirate. hehehhe. then after that teo, tiff and i went out to watch MONSTER HOUSE as mentioned in my prev post. came home watched tv till 4.30am hehehehhehe.

woke up at 4.30pm on friday and i panicked. I HAD TO MEET AUDREY, AMANDA, NICNG, JO AT CINE AT 5.10PM. T_T so, i rushed and rushed and ended up taking a taxi cos my dad was on the phone and he didnt really listen to me when i asked for a ride. but anyway, i guess it was my punishment for waking up late. spend more money on my taxi fare. T_T well, we watched devil wears prada. and its actually less than 2hours but it felt very long. not a bad show i say.

oh and here;s a funny chorus of the song tiff made me hear on thurs. i cant stop laughing at the way it sounds. its by the Teriyaki Boyz
I wonder if you know
How they live in Tokyo
If you seen it then you mean it
Then you know you have to go
Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)

and then last night i went to bed at 2 and owke up at 730 this morning. -.-" so i ended up taking taxi to MR again. :( did 8km today, =/ not very good timing but i'm glad i ran. i should start on my 12km again. and shant bother focusing on my 8km anymore. i realise if i do 12km my 8km will slow down so might as well start there. and i'[ve been awake since then.

i watched tv, and played games on cartoonnetwork.com HEHEHEH. something i used to do in pri school. but i dont really like some games. feels good being a kid again. 8)

today my dad gave me a talk on.. life. and i realised that as you grow older more ppl your age will die. he siad that he's got rich friends who have gotten so fat they've got health problems, he sees his schoolmates on the newspaper orbitruary. do you see such things happenning in the years to come? and i realised.. i dont think i really wanna grow to that old. i mean its like as you reach that age, more people your age will actually die. =/ and it really makes a huge difference if you have friends your age. and its really sad. :( kinda scares me.

oh well. i'm watching new episodes of ppg now. heheeheh. later i'm staying over at jie's place. and gonna go shopping with erjie tmr afternoon.

`11:02 PM__;

Friday, September 01, 2006

prelims are over. i think i'm really kinda scared but.. i should just look ahead already. at least i can go to bed whenever i want now. i'm most scared for humans and english. i think it'll pull me down and i'll find myself in some ulu place next year. =/ first 3 months is bad enough.

AND i can sleep until afternoon tmr. :D:D:D:D

ok i should go for physio, piano, more trng, a haircut, and really clear up my school work mess around the house. -.-"
school stuff: chem paper, CIP reflections, lit & geog notes...

i went to bugis ytd and entered this shop that HAD SO MANY >1000 PRETTY JIGSAW PUZZLES!!!! omgggggggg i cant wait to do one. should i do one this week? mhmm. must call up teo. bugis = good place to shop. XD

i'm really watching cartoons like mad now. cant wait to sleep somemore later. :D had an embarrassing nap on the bus home just now. =/ and then i came home and crashed somemore. watched monster house with teo and tiff earlier today. really like the show! :D very kiddy but i like it. i thought it was quite well done esp since its not that kind of lame-childish show.

`12:34 AM__;