maple leaves.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

gahhhhh. last night's convo with tiff made me realise i havent been laughing much. i've kinda been using "lol" which means its just very light laughter for me, i'd be more "hahahhahaha" when i'm really laughing. not that my life's been dull but it hasnt been that bright really.
AND my bio clock is screwed. when i'm sleepy i force myself to stay awake to study. and when i finally finish studying and get myself to sleep, i'm so wide awake i cant sleep. -.- [the studying's been productive btw. :)]

ok sunday i slept at 4am and woke up at 12pm on monday (8hr)
monday i slept at 4am and woke up at 1.30pm on tues (9.5hr)
tues i slept at 5am and woke up at 3pm on wed -.-" (10hr)

wed i went to bed at 3am but couldnt sleep till 535am and woke up at 6am on thurs (25min) and had amathpaper 2, i ran, stayed in school till 6, fell asleep on the bus home, napped for like 2hours on whole after that then studied until 2+am and woke up at 145pm on friday. (11hr)

ytd i went to bed at 4am but i couldnt sleep until after 530am and woke up at 715am (1.75hr) and ended up taking taxi to MR. -.-" and i'm blogging this amazing week for future reference.

so i didnt really have too good a run today. felt so dead. seemed more tired than the time when i ran on fridays and trained on sats. timing today was 1min slower and i sweated a whole lot more than usual =/ and felt like vomitting during striding. on the way back when i was rushing back, i turned and almost crashed into a cute little white puppy. -.-

but i'm glad i went for trng today. and now that i'm out of the shower, i'll go poop till 3? and start physics. i realise that i should eat more veggies.

`10:59 AM__;

Saturday, August 19, 2006

ytd i fell asleep on the bus and bonked my eye against the window. it really hurt. and the bone around it still hurts when i try to rub my eye or something.. bleh. slept in the bus on the way home from MR today too.

this morning was filled with ppl blocking my way and i missed having a better timing by__seconds. im quite mad at them for not keeping to the side but i should just leave it since it is a public place and its not really their fault. heh. i got scratched by the bushes trying to overtake them. -.-" (& today i saw 7 lizards on the ceiling of the toilet in MR! >.<" i mean CAN YOU IMAGINE IF THEY JUST DROPPED OFF THE CEILING AND LANDED ON SOMEONE IN THE CUBICLES?!) eck. and i've been using that toilet since Dec 2003 :S

anyway, got this off yahoo. try not to just read the underlined words. (:

By Nichola Groom
Wed Aug 16, 8:37 AM ET

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - Dean Karnazes insists he's not crazy. He just loves to run. A lot.

This fall, the 43-year-old long distance runner will tackle one marathon a day for 50 consecutive days, running a total 1,310 miles in 50 days. And for each 26.2-mile race, Karnazes and his family of four will travel to a different U.S. state.

Arguably the world's best-known ultramarathoner, Karnazes has already run 350 miles in one stretch, run a marathon in the South Pole, and raced across the California desert in the middle of the summer.

With this fall's challenge, however, Karnazes said on Tuesday he is going a step further in testing the human body's limits.

"I'm curious to see what the limits of human endurance are," he said in an interview. "I still haven't found them."

To train, Karnazes said he logs anywhere from 80 to 175 miles of running a week around his home in San Francisco. He has also picked up the pace of his racing schedule in the last five months, averaging about two marathons a month in addition to a range of ultramarathons, or distances longer than 26.2 miles. This week, he'll tackle a 100-mile race in Colorado. [place of the grand canyon!]

"It's almost like designing an engine that can go 200 miles an hour for a 100-mile (161-km)-an-hour race," Karnazes said of his aggressive training regimen, adding that he averages about four hours of sleep a night so that running does not get in the way of spending time with his two children, Nicholas, 8, and Alexandria, 11.

Beginning September 17 with the Lewis & Clark Marathon in St. Charles, Missouri, Karnazes' so-called "Endurance 50" event will take him to 8 official marathons and 42 "re-created" marathons across the United States.

Each marathon is expected to take around three-and-a-half to four hours, Karnazes said.

Runners of any ability are encouraged to join Karnazes along the way and can sign up online at the event's Web site, http://www.endurance50.com/ [i've got Os. :(]

Karnazes will end his quest with the ING New York City Marathon on November 5.

"I might actually log a couple extra miles," he said, adding that the logistics of getting from race to race are almost more challenging than the running itself.

Still, Karnazes insists that he's not crazy and that anyone could undertake the types of physical challenges he has.
"I've had a couple of jaws drop," he said. "I really don't consider myself to be gifted in any sort of way ... I just really love to run."

it sounds all too cool and fun, i'd probably do it one day if i had time and had that stamina. hahaha. i cant even think completing a marathon yet. --. anyway it'll take years and i'd have to go to some huge landmass to do it. hahaha singapore's just too small and it already feels big. =/

its quite annoying knowing that out of the 4 days of papers i have left, prelims dont end till 11 days time for me. -.- but i havent finished studying so, shouldnt complain i guess. -.-" this week, i have a paper on thurs only. but i have to go to sch on mon thurs and fri.

`6:47 PM__;

Thursday, August 17, 2006

today. at least 5 ppl have made me feel lousy. i dont think it was intentional, neither do they know it but its really getting into me. one of them even called me useless for saying "no". its not like i said it bluntly or something. ugh. family, friends.. i think i just want to leave here and travel around the world when i save up enough money. =X

`7:26 PM__;

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

ok. it seems like my life consists of nothing but running, sleeping and school/prelims.
it has gotten me to becoming a cartoon freak. >.<" or more of a tv addict. =/
okok, so instead of running/sleeping/school/tv. i shall try to speak about ANYTHING but that for the rest of this entry. XD

uhh.. yeah so ytd dajie came home. XD with a whole lot of super nice chocolate (which she bought at super cheap prices compared to here). :D:D her flight was supposed to be leaving on monday at germany time, coming back at tues. heh. very happy to see her but right now.. both my sisters go to school together. --. im quite jealous. ahahhaha. -.-" by the time i reach 19, my dajie would prob be graduated already. =/ but my dad wants her to get a degree. o.O mhmm.

and.. i feel old. i'm not even 16. =/ who am i kidding. but i'm still crazy over cartoons. or more specifically, i'm crazy over disney channel. actually someshows only lah. heh. i hope my sisters come back home today. XD

suddenly i'm very scared of living.

`4:00 PM__;

Sunday, August 13, 2006

dajie's coming back on monday!! XD

anw, i dont quite know what to do. i asked others but i realised that no matter what anyone says, i still cant decide. for them, they wanted me to decide on my own.. because they were "AFRAID [i] would stress [myself] up which [i'm] very good at". (-.-") no one can help me, only i can, because i know myself best and here i am, unsure of myself.
and i used to think that this would only happen on tv. -.- gahh.

on wed, i slept from 330am to 330pm. then on thurs i couldnt sleep till 4+am and woke up at 6.10am ytd. had 2 papers, cried in front of 2 teachers (unintended) & despite the little sleep, i was awake the whole day till 1+am. woke up at 7am & had 2hr nap this afternoon. i feel amazing.

i ran ytd and today. ytd's run was quite slack, we did about 7.5km in 47min and for some odd reason, that sec2-self-run feeling came back and i was ranting/yapping on and on to tiff throughout the whole run (i was REALLY a chatterbox). but it was like in all my self runs this year, none of them felt as WHOAA as yesterday's. it was just so relaxing and refreshing.

despite running ytd, i did my best timing today since i sprained my ankle. the timing's considered not that good anymore but the feeling i had when i ran.. it was that wonderfully unlimited/no-end-to-running feeling i used to have. i'm glad its coming back. i felt so de-stressed after running. i enjoyed it to thE MAX. its like, worries are still there but it really eased off the upset-ness. well, within the past year i have become some emotional freak. the more i try to hide it, the worse it gets. T_T

i should run more.

`1:18 AM__;

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

all my DSA stuff has failed. i'm annoyed cos i knew it and i wasted my time.
i only tried cos they wanted me to.. and when i dont get in, im not upset. i dont cry or moan.. and they are like "its ok... dont get too upset" -.- it wasnt my idea.. and i kinda expected it. i've no reason to cry. actually i got quite upset cos i was half convinced that i got into acjc but didnt. found out in my junk mail today. hmm.

and i got scolded for being rude last night over an sms because my reply was too straightforward and blunt.. I MEAN HELLO. that sms was at 1245 and do i have any reason to be happy about it just because you're smsing me from china?! SHEESH. i hate it when the same ppl always keep asking me how was my exams. 1. its disturbing. 2. i always give the same answer. 3. i'm in the middle of doing something. 4. its disturbing. 5. i will always give the same answer. 6. ITS DISTURBING SO NO USE ASKING. call me rude for all i care. i'm annoyed i got smsed about such rubbish at 1245am. >=( slap me if you think i deserve it. i only know whats important to me and what should be done. that slap would mean absolutely nothing to me. not even pain nor punishment. you'll just get ignored by me more often.

i did my 40min run today. and last night i covered about 1/3 of agriculture? and went to sleep. day wasted. school today was boring.. the spirit was much more enthusiastic in all my years in mg though. i think. heh. and here i am. clueless of what to do.. unwilling to shower. relaxing in my room. i just want to sleep. i know what i should do.. but my mind is so against it. insatiable needs they call it.. unecessary wants.. and there's laziness.

what to do with me what to do with me what to do with myself.

`1:29 PM__;

Monday, August 07, 2006

gosh. s'pore's turning 41, and it just seemed like ytd i was going home in my schoolbus seeing 32 candles (year 1997) at ghim moh when i was in rg...

i feel old. T_T but yeah, 41 is a whole lot older than 15+ anyway. hahaha. -.-

i cant bring myself to study for the day yet, but i'm quite ok with myself. i'm just really pissed i wasted the afternoon thinking i was going to run and ended up not running.

but i'll be running tmr.. if it doesnt rain. :)

i did 12km on sat, very very happy! :) i love long runs. :D

tmr's national day celebration.. i dont feel like wearing red/white. >.<"
ahh. oh well. something will be done. i will try to study geog soon..

prelims have started.. and i really dont know what to feel.

`4:50 PM__;

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

i'm annoyed.

i dont know whats with me lately but maybe miss teo's right. i dont talk enough. however, i find it really REALLY tedious to open my mouth to talk. and really tedious to go get a book to reda. i'll only read whats in front of me.

i'm starting to dislike certain classmates whom i was once close to. or at least.. i thought we were close.
its like they're getting on my nerves and they only speak to me just cos they need help in something. and you know, sometimes i dont feel like helping ppl in math, chem etc. whatever, and ya i get the guilty feeling that i'm selfish but when school's not involved, i feel so ignored by them. thats why, I DONT WANT TO HELP THEM.

and i have to do an emath paper and and and and study 2 chpts of geog again and i want to watch sg idol. and its 645pm.

for 2 nights in a row, i slept on my geog textbook without packing my bag or switching off my comp. >=( and today, i slept to the interchange (my intended stop to physio) & THE CONDUCTOR HAD TO WAKE ME Up! -.-

i'm really struggling to manage my time. :(

`6:45 PM__;