maple leaves.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

i'm one day off studying plan. and i havent done anything to do with Elearning other than geog fys.
call me great. i've got panda eyes too. what have i been doing? - not using my time well.
however, on the other hand, i've completed sec 3 SS and sec 4 chpt1-3. :)

i've had rather good runs today and on thurs. i need to improve more though.
but.. i have to remind myself
studies are more important than running.
studies are more important than running.
studies are more important than running.
studies are more important than running.
studies are more important than running.
and not
running is more important than studies.
running is more important than studies.
running is more important than studies.
running is more important than studies.
running is more important than studies.

OK. list of things to do BY SUNDAY. ++edit
Chem: prelim paper
Physics: all those 4 thingies on lead, and the test paper
English: situational writing
Heymath: 3 revision papers (4hours) and 2 of the estimation
Lit: Poem/Prose
SS: chapter 4, 5, 6 (from 2006) & Essay

ahh i'm scared. i'm gonna sleep late tonight. and i want to wake up late tmr.. but i dont think i should. i might have to reschedule my study plan.

`11:18 AM__;

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

oof. the slack days are over.. and i'm one chpt behind studying plan. and i'm so pooped today.

haha its no use plucking my eyebrows. it grew back within 2 weeks! and if i were to get them done, i might have to pay double or triple the usual price. =X

yesterday morning was taking forever to finish.. i was falling asleep and at the same time thinking.. gosh i cant believe tonight everyone's gonna be so alive and etc.

the afternoon went by real fast, after sch, i went home had piano, showered, wait for tifft to come join me after her run. for a moment i thought tiff and i were gonna be late! and also.. i must really thank my mum for her BIG BIG BIG BIG help yesterday.
she and my dad helped for my dress. she lent me her bag, her shawl which i didnt use, her camera (which was actually paid by my dad), she sent me to get free make up at tangs which was SUPER GOOD that make up woman was so nice and funny! and my mum's nice hairdresser which was REALLY CHEAP and also well done.. anw.. my mum sent tiff and i everywhere from 3 - 7:15. hmm all done in about 4 hours. the hair was done in like 30-40min. real fast!
and you know, i dont think my mum slept a wink last night cos she was packing for her hk trip today when i went to bed.

anw, last night went by SUPER FAST. the food was really good. pity those who didnt get to eat some of the dishes. heh. wasted money. and well, last night was quite fun cos.. it was a rather colourful night. i'd love to upload some pics but i dont know how to do it here and.. aiyah nvm lah. oh yes. the whole night.. at first it was ok walking in my shoes.. then after a while.. i felt like: OMG i must hurry sit down my shoes are killing me. and they're only like 2-2.5 inch. haha thats how pathetic i am. -.-" and we took LOADS of photos.. mhmm. then we ran to the hotel room shoe-less, crashed mellee,amanda,nicng,jo,audrey's room. till 1235 or something. they all conked out around 12! tifft amanda and nic were sleeping like the dead. (kidding.) and it was just really dumb. so i ended up taking stupid candid pics of them sleeping. hehehehehhe. and i took the whole hotel room. pretty cool.

oh yeah. i took a few nice heads. REALLY GOOD. i like. :) so anw, last night when i got home, i watched my anime from 1-2am, then did my hair and took the process of the time it was so nice.. to the time my make up was out and my hair was all wet. then i did the photos.. which i had a struggle with cos the thing was quite annoying. and finally got all the pics up. :) and then i slept at 4+am with ease.

woke upat 1030 today (intended to be 0945) and went for physio at 11 when i was like a zombie, and came back at 2. crashed till about 4.59pm and here i am. slacking. =X ok i'll go find osmething productive to do now.

`7:26 PM__;

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

school. a serious waste of time right now.
theres an opening ceremony and countless useless rehearsals whereby sec 4s sit and do nothing.
and i want to find some time to run. and theres this chinese period i have and all we do is sit and do nothing. if only i could just use that time to go running or something. :( i need to run for an hour.

and then.. when i finally decided to study, i am given a super packed schedule with test papers to finish at night. i think i'm going to have to cancel piano for a month or so again. :(

i got caught up between running and school. i fell asleep while doing work the past 2 nights. i wont be surprised if i screwed that physics test up.
and i decided i'm not gonna be so focused on running now. prob run on my own, run 2x or once a week, just for fitness. and at the same time, not miss any saturday trg. XD
its annoying. even now, i'm struggling to stay healthy, have enough rest, stay awake in school, finish my work and even catch my bus. i cant study like this. and i dont know what i want. actually i do, but i find it impossible to reach that goal, cos after some series of unfortunate events, i've lost faith in myself. i doubt myself. but i still want it. but the thing is, it seems like there are those who want it more than i want to because their minds are set. and mine isnt.
it seems like i know what i should do, but a part of me seems to be still pursuing what i want.

there are alot of things i need to do, i want to get. and time is in the way of it all because i'm struggling to manage my time. i'm struggling to just do what i should do. and i just wasted 5min of my time updating.
time is so precious now.. even if it means wasting 5min. ~~i hate myself.~~ oh dear me, please let there be a change in the winds. my sis and dad are sick. i dont want to be sick too! :( if only i could get away from this "luxurious & fortunate life" and stay in a rural area. let me suffer a natural disaster, even if theres poor sanitation. so be it. my life seems "too good".

`7:54 PM__;

Saturday, July 15, 2006

today's run was quite slack. :( i realised i was taking a bit too long to run to SICC cos i was daydreaming and i couldnt bring myself to go faster throughout the whole route. i had the chance to do (8+4), but i decided to go against it partly cos of my hip and cos i felt i was running for too long (lousy excuse). i didnt even do 8+1 or 2. but my timings were really odd.
22:12.3+22:32.1 = 44:44.4min = sisi:sisi.si (han yu pin yin) = diedie:diedie.die.

come on TR1C1A CH0NG!!! (i purposely typed my name like this so that no one will find my blog by searching my full name. =X) GRR I need to wake up. i've lost that "fighting spirit". it HAS to come back. apparently i'm still in dreamland though i'm lacking a whole lot sleep. i seem to be ignorant to the importance of rest. I MUST have more than 12hours of sleep tonight. i.e. i should sleep by 2300 TONIGHT. and maybe later i might go nap. and with enough rest -> i'll be more energised to run -> i'll stop having zits popping out like nobody's business. =X okok i'll go do my work now. =/

`11:21 AM__;

Friday, July 14, 2006

ah, the school week's over and i've still got tons of papers to do. omg. i have victoria and commonwealth amath 1 & 2, and the whole of scgs & nanyang chem papers. 2 geog qsns from fys, kyoto protocol research.. and i dunno what so my studying shall start on tues. this week i missed the 2nd bus twice, and the first bus twice. =/

i just finished the emath olevel june paper, and it took me 1hour 25min. i thought i missed out a page or something and no i'm not bragging. i'm usually really slow at doing exam papers, i thought i spent alot of time on graph. but maybe cos only 1 graph paper's required and there was no loci question whatsoever thats why i finished it quite quickly? but if thats the case, that means everyone will finish it soon too. :)

i even did the last qsn 11, and my timing stops at 7.30pm. i'm not quite sure how to do Q11, so i anyhow guess and my answers actually make sense but i'm not sure if its correct or not. and i'm really lazy to go check my answers. my eyes feel abit tired from seeing too much black & white.

my left hip and knee isnt being very nice to me. it keeps hurting occasionally. :( but my dad called while i was doing the last qsn about 10min ago, i might have to go for physio again. -.-

i hope i have a good run tmr. :) looking forward to it. and at the same time, i'm really pooped. i need alot of rest tonight. =/

EHHH now i got 135 -> 102s to improve for 2.4! :D okok dinner time. :) :)

`6:50 PM__;

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

time dearest (=.=),
as i grow older by the second, i do hope that you will allow those 67 strands of hair above my eyes which my mum plucked out grow back really soon. i will be so grateful. Also, i hope that you will be able to fly by slower so that i can run faster for my 2.4 tmr and shuttle run on thurs. =x but you're always so consistent anyway. grah.

*list of things to do by the end of the week:
E math: commonwealth 1 & 2
A math: victoria sch 1 & 2, commonwealth 1 & 2
Chem: acsi (hopefully tonight), scgs, nanyang
Geog: research on india's and china's stuff (tonight)
SS: think of some meritocracy analogy with COWSBURG by fri
spend time practising piano
and i do hope that you would be able to work VERY WELL with me so that i can manage you properly and study efficiently WITH enough rest and being able to finish what i've planned out on time.

your truly, me. (:

i slacked the past week and over the weekend, i saw 3 science teachers in orchard. (other than seeing mgs girls as usual) and now i shall go watch my anime>>shower>>chem>>zzz

`6:54 PM__;

Saturday, July 08, 2006

++EDIT 11:41pm. Adidas football advert! the lyrics are quite funny! :D

If you don't give my football back
I'm gonna get my dad on you
I only kicked it over your fence
And broke a silly gnome or two

Eanie meany, run away, meany run away

Steal my football, run away
I'll get it back someday

Jim Noir - "Eanie Meany" http://www.myspace.com/jimnoir
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hehehehhe i actually had alot of really meaningful stuff to say.. but i forgot what it was. -.-
i'm going to sleep soon :). grah. tmr i'm going shopping again. but this time i know what i want, so i hope it'll be got over and done with soon. i havent dont any revision whatsoever. grr.

anw, cos i was aching so badly, my run deproved by 3min today. horrid.
i told renuka on thurs about my running this year, i'm getting 1000 over injuries. and its really crappy. and i hated for mr q to think that i have these kind of stupid pains, injuries and sicknesses whatsoever and i feel so pissed. cos it does hurt, i dont even know why i have it AND IT IS A DAMNED STUPID REASON. but obviously he'd know, no one's happy to have an injury or fall sick.
and then i told her how i preferred TNg's workouts and that we shouldnt do as much grass trg since it'd be "pampering" our legs. well, i guess she said something that kinda make sense, maybe cos its my 3rd year of running and i'm growing (age wise and bones, not horizontally/vertically). so as the running accumulates, i start to feel pains/injuries i'd never thought i'd experience.

:( i cant wait for july to end. thats when i get into study mode, and probably fall sick again due to too much studying which leads to insomnia and resulting in not enough rest.

after my run today. i had difficulty walking home. i was pretty much limping home and i had to stand in all my bus rides today. of all days.. i'm really aching all over, but after walking so much today, my hip doesnt hurt as much as it did after trg and my rib cage seems slightly better.

oh so when i got home, i rush rush shower, wore my shoes and did my hair in the car and went for cip at my mum's thrift shop. quite fun actually, and quite slack too, it wasnt tedious and i thought the cockroach bit was hilarious. hahahaha. i think it'll be nice to go there and help with a group of friends, not just by myself.

i like drinking the apple juice at home. and i've developed a thing for drinking cold ribena. hehehehhe.

i need discipline. tmr's gonna be a secretly challenging day.

i was just reminded of one year ago, at this time, i was pulling out my hair over sports carnival, how i hated having to redo the same proposals and wasting 10000 smses. and my piano exam.

good news for piano is that, i've mastered my first 2 pieces, well almost there, i can play somewhat fluently but not everything in the same tempo. and the 3rd piece, abit ~~ and i have difficulty mastering the last 2 pages and it only has 3 pages. -.- while the first has 4 and 2nd has 7. -.-

AAHHH. my mum really wants me to get my eyebrows done. omgggg. its like, losing hair that has been on my face for 15+ years. ok its not "its like", it IS. AAHHH. I DO not trust anyone with my eyebrows and, my eyes will feel so bare. :/ i'll feel like an even weird-er weirdo. T_T

`10:30 PM__;

Friday, July 07, 2006

actually this thing i said about owen in my prev entry made me realise, he IS a proded player. i suppose he has found some way to deal with his life in the next few months of no football. and i suppose he HAS accepted the fact he cant play football for a while and he IS injured. it shouldnt be torture. its more like, making the best of a long break no? (:

`10:31 PM__;

owen's knee: ruptured cruciate ligament, out of action for 8(?) months.

its like, getting injured and not being able to run for 8 months.

that's pure torture for me man.
and i'm not even a national runner whatsoever like owen whos some famous proded footballer playing for his country.

he Is a sportsperson nonetheless, not being able to do one's sport is so.. TT_TT.
maybe if i'd reach a goal in running, i probably couldnt care less. but.. i havent, my goal has yet to be achieved.

i woke up this morning aching everywhere. my thighs, my arms, my back, my shoulders and even my right hand. -.- and i have difficulty walking up and down stairs. and whats worse was today in the toilet, i went inside the squatting one and OMG I COULDNT SQUAT LAHH. but i found it really toot to just go and enter into the other cubicle so i just tried to squat. and then later, i struggled to get up. =.= oh well.

i slacked alot today. i also walked alot today. i bought 2 bottles i liked at discount!! i wanted it to be 500ml but its 600ml and its still nice anyway. i am going to sleep soon i think but i dont feel like sleeping yet. =/

`9:23 PM__;

Thursday, July 06, 2006

i feel extremely lousy. like i'm working hard for nothing. so what if i work hard? there'll always be those smarter than me anyway. and at the same time, there'll always be those who wont be doing as well as i am.

and i dont intend on being a mathematician for the rest of my life. i'm considering an accountant. but life seems pretty boring. and my mid year geog marks raised my hopes of becoming a geologist (to be more specific: archaelogist). well, it made it seem more real. and yet, i dont feel prepared to have a job travelling around the world. yeah it sounds fun, but at the same time, i'll kinda be alone when i do it. :(

ok i guess i'm pretty much a loner even though i mix with different groups of people in school.. i wont deny their presence has made my life much livelier. but yeah, i dont really stick to anyone. i just talk more with the people i usually see and those around me.

and today's training got me thinking. i'm not gonna get anywhere if im just gonna depend on sat runs. gahh.. if only every training was a sat run. i still love northern route. its my main source and gauge of improvement.
i need to start self runs again. i need to work hard. i neeed to be weary of how i work hard too, cos i shouldnt do it blindly or i may get a serious injury if i work too hard.

i want to run fast. but to me, it seems like running fast means you have to be top ___ in national level. yeah i suppose it'll be nice getting trophies/medals but i just love long runs. i cant sprint for nuts which is why my shuttle run today was SO SHITTY.

anyway. i decided to retake my 5 item next week. i couldnt stand how lousy i was doing. my broad jump was shit and i missed an A for pullups cos for some odd reason my legs were pulling myself up and not my torso. grr. i need to whack my head.

oh yeah i bought a limited edition mentos just now, sour mix, just to try. it consists of grape, pineapple and green apple. AND IT WAS SO ADDICTIVE i finished all 15 within 1 hour. =X

you know if i carry on slacking for math, more people will start to do better than me. i think i'm taking it for granted. but i need to work harder in other subjects.
and i realised if i carry on slacking in training. or at least, not trying hard enough. i'm not gonna get anywhere. cos sometimes i feel like i'm running hard, but then i realise actually i can try to run harder but i'm just too lazy to. i must get sub 10 this year.

fortunately, next trg is this sat at mac ritchie. :D:D:D:D i'm considering whether to do 12km or 10km. i know timings will be like shit but i want to run hard for northern route and the next part of it just run normally.

and you know, i really miss TNg's workouts. no, i dont hate mr q, and in fact i do like SOME of his workouts. though i didnt get to run distances as long as 12km then, i miss the track workouts. cos it has enabled me to improve so much on the track, and i actually did develop a certain liking towards the track finally, neither did i pamper my legs by running on grass then which makes me feel so much more prone to injuries right now. and cross now seems so competitive, even during a time like this, i do not really sense much team spirit or bonding we once felt DURING trainings. the atmosphere in training with mgX now is so.. ughh. and i have come into realisation that when the going gets tough, i cant get going. but when the going becomes so relaxed and not tough, i improve a whole lot more than when the going gets tough.

i need seniors around.

`7:59 PM__;

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

HEHEHEHHE. i managed to geet away with doing 2.4 today hahahhaha. XD so gonna do next wed. i'd be more prepared then. x)

apparently, the sky dropped ytd. BECAUSE I GOT A2 FOR GEOG. omg. it improved from like constant failing in human geog to an a2. bwahahahha I KNOW WHY. cos i did 3physical geog + 1 human geog. WHOO! but i had like 16/25, 20/25 (!!!), 13/25 (-.-"), 16/25. the last qsn's human geog. didnt do too bad. and got a shock i actually got 20/25 for qsn 2! qsn 1 i had 17. and she counted wrongly so she minus 2marks. then another part she didnt mark so she added one more mark. luckily i got my a2. for a moment i almost had a b3.

my l1r5 for ca2 is 17 lehhhh. quite shit. ca1 is 15. sa1 is 14, overall is also 14. hur.
i have gotten a1 for emath, physics, amath, chem before.
i have gotten a2 for geog, chinese, english? before.
and i never do well for sslit. but if i put my highest for ss and highest lit together it'll be a b3. =/

i need to aim a2 for chinese, english and sslit. the rest i'm aiming a1. for o levels. =///
but if i can make myphysics jump from a 3.5/25 to 11.5/20 to 60/80. and make my lousy geog jump to an a2. i must do well for english. it'll bring my l1r5 down by so much.

oh yeah. i had chinese oral today. i said 2 words (only?) wrongly i think. the likelihood they heard me say wrongly is 1/2 and the convo seemed short but they were like "ok you can go now" in chinese. o.O

i'm rather sad for germany. good thing i spent the whole of last night sleeping though hehhehehe. from 5-7, 1030-6am hahahaha. the match wasnt worth watching anw, and eventhough its unexpected that france beat brazil, portugal got in and germany lost, WHY DO I CARE ANW I'VE LOST INTEREST IN WORLD CUP. i dont think i'll watch the last 3 matches. hmph.

i think i'm gonna sleep somemore today. i dont feel like doing hwk. =/ but i think i'll end up doing though. later also got singapore idol!

ehhh. i was looking at asics shoes a few days ago. SOME OF THEM ARE DAMN NICEE.. BUT I NOT SURE WHICH I WANTTT. i want to get. and i also need shoes for founders, or maybe not. i dont want to pluck my eyebrows. TT_TT

`5:46 PM__;

Sunday, July 02, 2006

just got up, found out brazil lost. AHH TT__TT i've lost interest in world cup.

`12:50 PM__;

AAAHHHH. i feel like crying for england ok, initially i was alright with both sides but after a while i kind of developed a liking for england. and seeing them lose was so.. TT_TT i want the same players to come back for next world cup! but beckham might be too old. rooney's too "bao li". :( i dont like C. ronaldo now. not cos of rooney's red card but for other stuff.

england's quite sad, they seemed really good this world cup but owen knee kena, beckham foot, & it just didnt do some of their players justice! lampard was rather disappointing i suppose, but its not his fault. terry, a cole, lennon, hargreaves (sp?) [no.16] were not bad leh. they're quite good surviving 10 vs 11 from 62-120min but i'm really very sad they didnt get through. :(

`2:23 AM__;

Saturday, July 01, 2006

heh. i must talk about my run today. did 8+2 (longest dist + PB since my return in june! ^^) my loop & 8km (from 45+ to 46+ to 42+) improved!
ok i know its quite pathetic but im really happy. i'm one step closer to getting back!! ^^ i want to do 8+4 but shall continue on 8+2 first. anw, i just finished tuition and gonna nap and then try to do hwk due soon by today and slack tmr (shopping) and on mon (tuition + training).

germany won! tough fight with argentina, but i still want brazil to win. :D

`12:58 PM__;