maple leaves.

Monday, October 31, 2005

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

TODAY WAS THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE 6 YEARS SINCE I PLAYED THE FLUTE!!!!

and it felt like WOW. some of the notes in the chromatic scale sounded wrong? hur. but i'm quite sure i remembered the fingering correctly! and the feeling's kinda hard to describe. :)

i'm bored and i'm trying to stay awake. at the same time i'm trying to call my dad so that i can go to bed.

`11:49 PM__;

Friday, October 28, 2005

HELLLO. it dont feel like sch's ended.
man i'm in love with healthy food. esp fruits!! ahh. ytd's juice really sucked but i REALLY REALLY BENEFITTED FROM IT. serious! i felt like puking like mad. but how it benefited me.. shall spare you readers the details. :)
anw its not cos of ytd why i'm in love with fruits. i was advised to take more of them and so i took a little more than usual then i felt so addicted to it. tasted so nice! [yeah they're just fruits haha.]

gah. its the end of sec 3. :(

FINALLY DONE WITH PEA. man i was like over the moon just throwing away every single paper i saw related to PEA. and i can sleep early tonight!! hahahaha.
i think cos of PEA i missed quite alot of bonding some classmates. i found out that everyone[the whole class today (very few of us) no cliques] played games together. and had tons of fun at west coast. gah. i missed out quite a bit. :(
but i'll be seeing those ppl next year! maybe we'll still have more time to bond too even though its O's year?

but even so. PEA wasnt that bad lah. it was kinda fun too and quite amusing watching the lower sec play and being so violent. =X

this year. i've taken the most no. of pics in my whole sec life. with and without classmates. but big contribution from my classmates. they rock. :D oh how i love them. ^^ [yeah i suppose i dont really show it much though. haha.]

i'm in love with my class..<3

happy *holidays*!

`9:37 PM__;

Sunday, October 23, 2005

AHH.
i dont feel the same way like i used to.

how is it different from last time?
there's so much difference. -.-

i am sad. =( i find it hard to feel happy.
i cant make myself think the way i want to. i know i can but i just cant.

oh yes. i've fallen SICK. and it made me feel more energised during the run ytd. hurhur. but really. sick and i didnt really feel as tired as usual. ANYHOW. THIS has been the reason why i've been feeling tired, going to bed earlier, increase in heart rate - after exams effect. =.=

everything now is so weird. I WANNA RESUME PIANO LESSONS. but my teacher hasnt called me yet. =/

gah. i dunno what to do. there's always this BUT in everything i should do.

`1:02 PM__;

Friday, October 21, 2005

this. is. so full of crap.
i keep feeling sleepy nowadays.

and i'm quite annoyed with a FEW REASONS.

i tell you one problem with me.
i'm always *working* when i'm supposed to rest!
like now its OFF FROM BOOKS. AWAY FROM SCH WORK.

and what is this coming back to sch to teach sec 2s =.= and this geog thing.
i dont regret it lah really. then again i havent fully decided on everything except geog.
but it sounds so stupid i'm supposed to get a break from this kind of rubbish.
and i might end up going to a chem workshop after that geog thing.
and worse thing is. ITS ON THOSE DAYS BEFORE AND AFTER MY BDAY.
but dunno lah i'm still considering.
but i dont really want to. >.<"

not sure. -.-
gah WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. anyone who sees me online after 1030pm tonight. please scream at me to go to bed. thank you.

`7:38 PM__;

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

OOF. TIRED. and my hols dont start till 16th nov?
maybe earlier. depends how long i take to get geog done.
AH. MY BED. SO COMFY.
i dont even know why i bothered to update again. -.-" heehee.

`11:25 PM__;

hmm. dunno whats with me. no matter what approach she uses. i JUST CANT STAND HER. i know she wants to make peace. so do i. but i just dont like the way she does it. and the way i do it is just by ignoring her. =/
but no matter what approach she uses. whatever she does. I JUST CANT STAND HER. and the problem's probably with me.

anyhow. i seem to be getting pretty nice and satisfying marks.. but thats cos i havent got back those i have less confidence in. :S
BUT I GOT A1 FOR PHYSICS!!!! bwhahaha. [sorry to those who feel >.<" by reading this.] my physics has been going down from A2 since test 1 to test 5 then test 6 - just passed. and this exam makes me feel better. but my overall is probably a b4 if i calculated correctly. =.= well.. at least better than a C? :) i feel somewhat satisfied with my physics. ^^
geog.. not too sure. but i'm fine with a b3. just pretty unsure for overall. =/

some ppl complain that they dont like ppl to flaunt their marks. but.. it gets kinda annoying when ppl say like "ya lah i know you got ~~" and its not like its my fault ppl go around telling the whole world how much other ppl got right. -.-

and there's ENGLISH AND CHINESE. GAH I'M SOSOSOSOSOO SCARED. AND SS AND LIT TOO. @#$%^&*!!!!!!!! i dunno what to think. SCARED.
i'm so bored. all i wanna do now is read harry potter book 4! but i cant find the book. -.-"
i slept at 9+ last night btw. ^^
ok actually i think i kinda have stuff to do. but now i need ppl i'm working with to do it. so now that they're not around. shant do it. -.-"

i'll try to get the tv to entertain me. byebye.

`4:07 PM__;

Monday, October 17, 2005

@#$%^&*!!!!!!!
SOMETHING'S HAPPENING AGAIN.
ARRGGGHHH.
~~what the hell is going on?! :(~~

`9:07 PM__;

Saturday, October 15, 2005

hello! i've had enough enough sleep. i slept for 12.5hrs on wed night. then thurs night i went to bed at 1+am [hoping that i'll sleep long enough to wake up late] and i woke up at 10am! X_X ---> that just shows i've had more than enough sleep. heh.

but then last night i went to bed quite late woke up earlier today. heehee. aiya at least now i think my sleeping times will be ok.

i was supposed to pack my room ytd. and decided it'd be better if i pack after sch ends. i'll still need that chem book and other stuff when sch ends.

i had a talk with myself while running. i tried to push myself to motivate myself. it kinda worked. ^^ cos recently i've been having this feeling of just collapsing and fainting. but the talk i had with myself today was good. :D
i've done this many times.
i can do this again.
the part inside of me that wants to finish is stronger than anything i come across and it will last longer than the route itself.
I CAN DO THIS.

sounds dumb ahah. but the long sentence there really got me going. (:
anw some idiot bumped into me like nobody's business! i mean like HELLO YOU'RE RUNNING WHY DONT YOU JUST STEP ON THAT STUPID PUDDLE. if you run a route full of puddles you might as well not run it right.
i'd rather that person step on the puddle and splash me than to avoid it and bang into me.
SISSSSYYYYYYYYY. ~~i'm kinda pissed only because that ass didnt say sorry heehee. =X~~

haha. we played a few games after trg cos we were waiting for mr n to come back cos we needed his key to get our bags.
the games were fun. ^^ i'm an official duck. heh. :D

omg i'm damn pissed with her!
he came in and told her about it.
he leaves.
i thought she'd done something about it AND NOW SHE TREATS IT LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS.
whats become of her?! :(
i tell you she's still doing it! oh man DOES SHE EVER TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUSLY?! HOW DID SHE Become like that?! :'( who does she think she is. she says shes not always right but when we talk to her she talks like shes trying to prove she's right. she is SO NOT any high class woman. only know how to act. it sucks. :( she doesnt get the meaning of happy. she's too greedy. SHE IS. i tell you she was so much better last time. >=(

rainy season. gah effect of the northeast monsoon haha.
i've been having alot of typos lately. -.- and now i cant be bothered already

okay. hmm. dunno what i'm gonna do now. but the other day my dad suggested going cycling with him. sounds fun! (: but aiyah now he's gone out haha.

getting papers back next week. >.<"

`11:31 AM__;

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

HI.
mymymy. NO MORE DAYS OF STARRING AT TEXTBOOKS AND FILES!

i feel like primary school again! :D

i'm trying to sleep late today so that i wont have to wake up so early tmr. =X

i.e. tmr just wake up. lunch. go mr. heh.

i bought a pair of flats with erjie today xD
GOAL is a nice show. DOESNT DESERVE TWO STARS!
unless you're saying i have bad taste! :S
well its just an opinion.

seeing so many mg ppl at cine still surprises me.

intensive packing of my bedroom starts on friday. :S

and i think i'm gonna resume piano lessons. kinda looking forward to it now. :D

`11:17 PM__;

Monday, October 10, 2005

i think i did worse for amaths today?? not too sure. but i feel absolutely emotionless.
i dont feel as bad as last week though.. maybe cos physics wasnt as bad as expected? :)

heh. slacked the whole of today. still wondering whether i should study chinese or not.

gonna sleep super duper early tonight!
9pm? 9.30? 9.45?10?

hmm. ^^

but then again. SHE's on the phone VERY VERY LOUD. its annoying.

i dont like it when someone is not at peace.. it results in NO PEACE AT ALL.
i'm in the bedroom and i still can hear her voice over the phone. gah i suppose its nothing new.
when will it stop?
i'm sad and kinda worried.

i'd rather they stay here.
she wouldnt be going out so late at night. pretty sure of that.
she'd probably be less irresponsible too.
and i'd see more of her.
i think she'd be in better state than she is now.

:( we've all got such weird perspectives towards certain things.
i've been having this weird thought. whether we should be contented with what we have or just keep on persevering.
i mean if you're saying like sometimes its right sometimes it isnt.. then thats really really based on opinion.
i need a factual answer. is there one?

heh. i had a short talk with my dad. now its past 9pm -.-"
ok lah i try to sleep before 10. x)

`8:47 PM__;

Saturday, October 08, 2005

=X i thought it'd be better today.

it did start off pretty well. then i lost my mind. =X

i felt like collapsing and vomitting. =X =X =X why was it so bad? why is it that now i go toilet before i run and not after. >=( letting it all out makes my stomach weaker. -.-

maybe its just another OFF day. my shorts were so soaked. =X

and maybe i should just accept and believe that i'm actually stressed cos i keep trying to convince myself that i'm not.

i am going to ikea for lunch.
i'm not in the mood for a meal now. =/
i'm in the fruity water mood.
and i want to sleep too. :(

`11:17 AM__;

Friday, October 07, 2005

damn. i kind of broke down halfway on the bus. i think almost everyone i walked by when i got out could tell my eyes were wet. >=(
shit lah. i tried to keep cool then GRR I NEED TO STOPP ALL THIS RUBBISH.

but i cant.
i feel like i'm searching more than just the answer.
i know it already. but still.. !!!!!!!!

i 100% broke down when i got home.

i cant keep cool now.
i'm too generous. really. i am. i'm not sure how to stop being like that.
i wish someone could just give me 1000000000 tight slaps on my face right NOW.

i shall go nap and spend the next 60hrs with intensive physics, inclusive of [sleep, eat, run, shower and a bit more of a maths.]

i am a major major MAJOR MAJOR SCREW UP. [8% of that is filled with exaggeration] and i'm pretty sure i screwed up almost everything.

ok i shall scooch off to rest and try to look on whatever brightside i can see. ~~i feel like the ultimate piece of shit you can ever find.~~

`1:45 PM__;