maple leaves.

Saturday, July 30, 2005

HELLO. ITS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. BWAHAHAHHAHA.
could have died if i stayed any longer. =X thank goodness there were helpers there or we would all have really died. managed to play street fighter again on XboX with jo. DAMN ITS SO FUN I WANNA PLAY AGAIN....... havent played since primary school. ok.. i guess i had abit of fun.. esp watching the teachers. hahahah. :)

this morning i got to the bus stop at 6.08.. only to find out that the first bus comes 8 mins later.. -.- but i wasnt really late! :) then today when it ended.. had to carry the rubbish from the bamboo courtyard to the place outside school.. wah. the rubbish STINKS. then again why shouldnt it.. -.-" and it was super super super heavy. dont want to do push ups already lah. arms in pain.. =/

came home and napped after that. heh. dont feel like doing *hwk* today.. will probably only do heymath. haha. TIME TO DELETE THE FOLDER: sportscarnival xD

dont think i can sleep tonight. =/ nvm planning to spend time with stars today. :D hopefully no one disrupts my plan to do hwk tmr.
HAVE A NICE DAY. :)

`8:08 PM__;

Friday, July 29, 2005

HELLO. YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE. LOOK AT THOSE PPL. YOU THINK THEY DONT HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM?! how come THEY CAN AND YOU CANT. you _______!

anyway. 9pm i was planning to do some leisure stuff - making stars. xD AND I HAVENT STARTED. -.- damn. i was actually planning to do it yesterday lah.

today must sleep a little earlier.

I THINK that transitlink.com.sg is not reliable. WHY. weekdays. 6.15am 970 already comes. and it says that the first bus is at 6.30 on weekdays in my direction! X_X
haiz. hope the bus comes early tmr morning lah.

and after that.. I'M GOING HOME TO SLEEP. bwahaha.

then again i might screw up my body clock again. -.-" ahh. what to do. no school hwk. but got proposal.. studying for tests and chinese tuition.. ALL RELATED TO SCHOOL. but is not class hwk. dumbdumbdumbdumbdumb.

i am annoyed. but good news: JULY IS ENDING THIS WEEKEND. HAHA. august already quite busy =/ but not as busy as this month. :)

OK LAH. i'm going to try spend time with paper stars. lol. bye.

`10:37 PM__;

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

and after sports carnival.. comes the PEA. --.

well at least its not a huge problem AT THE MOMENT.

you know this thing about people not doing as they say?
in a way its good.
why?
because those people who have had suicidal thoughts would have been dead by now.

thank goodness they really didnt commit suicide. -.-"

and so.. i had another nightmare last night. WHY DOES SHE HAVE SUCH GREAT TIMING. GRRR. like yah i needed it. why are you asking me questions that is for other people to answer?! you want THEIR opinion. not mine. SO WHY ASK ME WHAT THEY THINK. >=(
i ended up in tears again just because she told me off? - you see how weak i am. grr.

oh ya and i tried another 10 improper guy push ups again last night.
AND MY ARMS/SHOULDER AREA HURT EVEN MORE THIS MORNING.
ok i shall let myself REST tonight. rest - essential. xD

i'm in pain. -.-" lol. today after ltc meeting.. everything else went by quite nice at my aunt's office. i think i wanna work there when i grow up!! :D it seems so fun.. though i know i havent the tough bits of the job yet.. BUT AIYAH fun lah. i just need to be less forgetful.. -.-"
quite nice working with other relatives and sisters.. haha :)

got home at 7+.. well at least no hwk today. CANT WAIT FOR THIS NOVEMBER.
1. my birth month! [ok its a fake reason]
2. no SC. no PEA. no GEOG project. just me. training. and homework.
i'm so sick of projects. grr.

ok. better go now. bye.

`10:28 PM__;

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

ytd was quite fun. :) and i've concluded amanda's real nice to sleep on. =X

went to aunt's office after that.. waited like 30mins just for dajie to come.. -.- but after that we did the work and all. funfun. :D

i was almost late for training. -.-" but trg wasnt too bad lah.. other than the fact that I CANT DO A PROPER GUY PUSH UP. grr.
now i have to try and do 10 EVERYDAY. [but right now some part between my arms and shoulders are aching. =/ i dont feel like doing. >.<" ] ok! tricia's gonna get arm muscles! =X

anw. so after training.. went to take bus back home.. and then it was raining quite heavily. and so.. i get kena-ed by heavy rain once again. umbrella didnt really do much help.. and as i walked.. the whole road had water flowing.. so my shoes were soaked.. i could even feel water soaking into my uniform -.-" and then strong wind blows.. my umbrella inverts. -.-
so. i got home. drenched. and soaked. and it actaully felt quite good. haha. havent been this wet by the rain for so long. lol.

today. i tried to take my pulse this morning? but couldnt feel it so i gave up. hahha.. then i almost died in school X_X. super sleepy. i WANT to be careful in maths. :/ even if i did study i would still have made that mistake. grr. i want to strangle myself. >=(

actually i'm just aching abit here and there.. but not all the time.. not too bad. :) got tuition later.
maybe i shld go zzz for awhile. xD byebye.

`3:15 PM__;

Sunday, July 24, 2005

HELLO. now the rest of july doesnt seem so pressurising anymore. yesterday i woke up at 1.30! hahaha. XD and i've had a really really UNIQUE weekend. somewhat normal.. but slightly different and a little special. :)

i've done alot of hwk. :D i feel 3/4 accomplished. xD left with chinese tuition studying physics and the AMC paper to complete. =X

ok that sounds like alot. but its all by tues anyway. :) i did the rest liao.

i bought more stars to make. :D can add up to my *collection* when i'm free.

i need to re-read harry potter book 5 before i can start on 6. -.-" it'll probably take me weeks for a slow reader like me.
haha.

but i think with school and everything else.. i wont be so free.. =X i realised that i've got 2 test every week from week 2 to week 9 and 1 test on week 10. -.-

ANDD.. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR. hopefully it dont rain in the afternoon.
BECAUSE... after founder's day celebration [which has no lessons at all :D] i can go over to help out at my aunts' office and go straight to mac ritchie after that and after training --> study physics. zzZZz.

:D sounds like a nice day right? [other than the study physics bit] i can make good use of my time from after founders day to training. ^^ its super fun to help out at her office. :D:D:D:D:D
and considering how early i woke up today.. i think i might have NO PROBLEM sleeping tonight. YAY. x)

`7:57 PM__;

Friday, July 22, 2005

yesterday
disastrous.

esp when i had to hear ppl who go on ranting on the phone the whole day making me feel so threatened as if something bad is going to happen to my family.

and i will talk about my piano when i get my results back. for now - just try to get over it. >.<"

today.
was quite nice. :)

GOOD NEWS [for me]
i actually fall asleep in class! [ok its bad. but now i feel normal. xD]
AND
today/tonight i can sleep as long as i want! BWAHAHAHHAHA. no need to wake up early tmr. :D

ok. but theres tons of hwk. grr. and studying for physics. i cant rmb what chpts to study but i think i wrote it down somewhere...... hmm.

at least monday's half day. :)

ok. gtg shower now. byebye.

`7:46 PM__;

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Modern
- PROKOVIEF - jumpy stacatto, detached.. rhythmic
- Jelinek - disonance, diatonic [crochet quaver crochet], non-functional, 2 part texture [oneside answers the other side]
- Bartok, Stravinsky

Jazz
- GERSHWIN [or something like that] - disonance, [SOUNDS AWKWARDLY WRONG]

Baroque
- Bach, Handel, Purcell, Scarlatti [famous for polyphonic imitative kind], Pachebel [nice tune also imitative]
- has ornaments.

Classical
- simple texture/melodic lines? alberti bass, broken chords
- Haydn, Mozart, Beethoven

Romantic
- Schubert, Schuman, Tchaikovsky, edward greig, alger
- homophonic-chordal
-more complex + colourful

lol. =/ anw sheryl beat me in arm wrestling!!! :S X_X why am i so weak. -.-

`7:21 PM__;

hello.

when tmr's over. i'll feel so much better.
when the month's over. i'll feel a WHOLE WHOLE lot better.

sometimes i feel so stupid. why did i even bother taking up this responsibility when i dont even get points?! my family's heard me complaining like mad [which isnt a good thing] and i hate complaining. i ended up arguing with them and i really wonder.. WHY DID I BOTHER TO DO IT?! they were asking me to not do it at all and i couldnt bring myself to not do it! honestly speaking i dont disagree with them. grr.

anw. exam tmr. i better dig my ears tonight. i'm currently taking a break from practising. will be going back to it after this i think.

got quite a bit of hwk to do today.. =/ oh well. only 2 things due tmr. :)

now that my exam's even nearer. suddenly i dont feel so X_X X_X X_X X_X

i'm so gonna look forward to the next training i think. :D ahhaa. byebye.

`4:44 PM__;

Sunday, July 17, 2005

if serving the school, studying, hwk and training is the cause of failing my exam which was a result of bad time management..

i swear i will break.

`10:33 PM__;

Saturday, July 16, 2005

*shit happens* yeah thats what wan pin told me ytd.
i agree.

and a whole lot of shit (diarrhoea) will just keep happening when i'm constipated.

no wonder life is SO FAIR. and that is just one way they balance the amount of shit that comes out in life.
I NEED TO SHIT. this month is WAYY TOO SHITTY. gah. so is this entry.

ok. then again there have been months there have been super super wonderful. its just A bad month. not like i will actually die right? =/

well right now ~~you~~ are being one big bloody asshole which is why so much bullshit is coming out of you. GRR YOU IDIOT!!! @#$%^&*!!! you hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite [times infinity]

`11:35 AM__;

Friday, July 15, 2005

I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT
- july 2005 is a bad month
- i am selfish and mean.
- i am a horrible friend
- i have bad sense of physical self-control [arms, legs, tears etc.]
- today was just a typical bad day in a bad month.

I HAVE DECIDED THAT
- next tues i will walk to the mrt and take the train home.
- next august i will wake up late in the weekends.
- I WILL BE ABLE TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.
- NO ONE IS GONNA MAKE MY AUGUST 2005 BAD.
- i need to practise more piano AND DO IT not just say.
- i need to make my right arm = my left arm. they are too different. =/
- i am going to finish my hwk this weekend.
- i am going to be GOOD.

`6:13 PM__;

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

GAHH NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE.

i just finished studying geog. :)

I'M SCARED FOR PIANO. >.<"""""

shittttttttttttt.

i like the way i plan my time for studies. -.-
no i'm not being sarcastic. :)

this morning i almost crashed into the pillar while walking to class! gah.
i am an insomniac freakk.

goodnight!

`11:23 PM__;

Monday, July 11, 2005

HI. :D

new goal in life: try not to complain too much. >.<"

heh. hey i just realised i can add images here on my blog!! i mean it says right here on top of this text box. !!!!

ok. got loads of work due on thurs. better do some now since i got nothing due tmr. and ting xie's after recess. x)

omg. i just had the shock of my life. i am SSSSSOOOOOOO SCARED. :S
in a way i'm kinda hopeful it will happen. but i'm scared. =/ i feel more relieved if it doesnt. -.-"

gah. anyway i've been/going to wake up early in last weekend and this weekend!! i've got not enough sleep!! i'm becoming and insomniac freak. =/

ok. anw last sat after the perth trip meeting.. i brought esther home cos she needed to go to church at 1045 and we ended at like 0915 [fyi she goes to same church as dajie.].. so just brought her home kill some time then she walked with her to church after that. oh yeah and dear su yee had to take a bus ride home cos her driver couldnt send her. haha.

seriously. i never brought anyone home just for fun and talk about SO MUCH [on the bus, while walking, at home] before. it felt quite nice really. seriously we talked ALOT. and in a way. alot of memories came back to me. like how i used to live my life going to visit the garden everyday... kissing my dogs like mad etc. oh man i feel so horrible now. >.<" esther makes a good talking friend. shes so nice to talk to! haha.

i wonder whats gonna happen to me after O Levels. =/
okay got stuff to do. bye! (:

`8:51 PM__;

Thursday, July 07, 2005

RRRRRRAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

WE X-IES ARE GREAT. you arent. XP

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR... screw them. =X

i'm abit down. :(

i'm so worried for piano. i really really need to practise like mad. and that nurse injected my vein last wed. my left hand became weaker. and now.. ITS SO WEAKKKKK.

must build up left fore arm muscles!!

BAH. ok. have a nice day. :)

`5:48 PM__;

Monday, July 04, 2005

hello! :)

tiff: sorry if i kinda pushed the stuff to you and gave you that heck care attitude.

anw. I FINALLY COMPILED THE PROPOSAL. hahahah is like staying at home. waiting for an impt phone call. and then POOF! you realise you can do it! and its finished! hahahahahah! ok. i have nothing to do at all.

i'm going to school tmr. my sis asked: am i excited? i think by right i should. but tiff was saying something about Xies staying back to do proposal and i had to remove my stitches. -.- grr sounds annoying. blah. and so i'm not too excited. PHYSICS FILES. :S EEKS.

i dont like this sports carnival. bleh and when such things like this happens i cant be bothered to put my heart into it and do the best i can. and i tell you i dont think that was the best effort i put in. but the proposal came out nicer than i thought it would be haha! but i think the jacob's ladder abit koyak. =X

anyway. now i'm bored. waiting for show to start. and i think all the channel 8 shows now are BORING. AND DUMB. but what to do now? i got no life. =X

haiyah last night i went to bed at 12+am and i couldnt sleep!!! then i finished the crossword puzzle book i got in p3? i didnt sleep till 3am. >=( and i stayed in pjs till 6pm. heh. i think they are very comfy ^^ i didnt have to go out anw. practised abit of piano. i seem to be practising aimlessly. =/

ok lah i go now byebye!

`8:52 PM__;

Sunday, July 03, 2005

hello hello!! swell's gone down and my mummy says i can go back to school on tuesday! woohoO!! haha. oopS =X i sound like an idiot wanting to go back to school.. but the past few days.. STAYING AT HOME SUCKS. esp when all i ever do is have a hard time sleeping.. eating bitter medicine.. watching tv.. practise piano and not getting to eat right. X_X so bored. and then i go back to school having to catch up with the others?! >=( now i'm super sleep deprived.

i've been sleeping for like 5-7hrs the past 2 nights. last night i got woken up by some ulu sms at 5.30am and couldnt sleep for the rest of the night. -.- super sian. =/

i think i shall try to figure out how to explain for circles then at least i got other stuff to do rather than to watch tv and practise piano. AHH i'm so scared for piano. :S
anyway MY ERJIE ROCKS AND I LOVE HER :D

the area where my left dimple's supposed to be looks like a blueblack. haha! X_X i'm so bored. see how early it is. i better sleep early tonight. =/

i think i'm not drinking enough water. =X

anw *check this out*
PROCASTINATORS CLUB: meeting postponed!
hahahhahaha
got that frm tv. =X

i feel like a stronger person / or at least better when i let out my sad thoughts.
i want to surrender.
i want to give up.
i think i am ashamed.
i am not proud of it.
i want to give in.

ok i feel good. byebye! :) have a nice day. xD

`9:56 AM__;