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Thursday, June 30, 2005

gosh. now i look like a pufferfish. pouty cheeks swollen mouth. cant eat right either.. the only normal thing i can eat is ice-cream float! haha.. i can only consume with a straw.. -.- so even whatever soup/porridge [which i have difficulty consuming even with a straw] i cant even finish it cos its so dense and so hard to consume.. now i only feed on oats and ice-cream. =x sounds so rubbish. >.<" haha. =/

today i woke up super early. GOSH I WAS SO BORED. JUST DOING NOTHING AT HOME. and for sports carnival.. whats the use of being so free when its so hard to contact everybody else?! grr.. oh well I CANT WAIT FOR JULY TO END. ^^

i feel like an irritant.. and a nuisance.

i've got mc till next wed. thurs then can come to sch.. =/ actually i can talk.. but cant talk too much.. or my mouth will really hurt. :( i cant sing but my throat isnt sore.. i think i can come to school.. just that my mouth is swollen.

kk shant update further more.. gonna do other stuff. byebye! hopefully i wont wake up too early tmr.. x)

`10:57 PM__;

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

hello!

eversince ltc my sleeping time's been screwed up. i actually woke up at 2pm on sunday and I DIDNT SLEEP THE WHOLE OF SUNDAY NIGHT. annoying i tell you. just lying in bed there.. looking at how time flies every once in a while.. urghh.

surprisingly ytd in school i was falling asleep during maths only. and like for 2 mins of geog? I SURVIVED SCHOOL i didnt even sleep in any of the bus rides! and i think right.. the less sleep i have.. the faster i run. =X oh yeah. then last night i could sleep super well! lie in bed for a few mins and i was already zzz. :D body clock is back to normal! x)

okay. TODAY i think after school physics was super super draggy. she just keeps talking about OTHER STUFF.. and then "sorry i have to go now" then i dunno whether shes ok with my file or not. blah. ltc meeting was longer than expected haha but we werent scolded for being late anw. :)

AHH TMR'S MY OPERATION! i'm half-excited now. I AM PREPARED. :D my mum said i could go to school till 9.15 and she'll pick me up and bring me to the hospital. :)

when i come back i think i'll have a lot of catching up to do. >.<"
my mum said that i should eat all that i can now cos after my operation i cannot eat for one week. only can drink. have to go on a liquid diet -.- and my mouth will be all swollen even on the outside. -.-"
heh but i think i'll eat normally lah dont care. but i might take some chocs my jie and i bought the other day. xD
kk i'm gonna practise piano now. :) have a nice day.

`6:01 PM__;

Saturday, June 25, 2005

HEH. I'M SO HAPPY. i take back what i said in my previous post. =X

i dont want those ppl i have to contact end up saying stuff like that. haha. so I'M TAKING IT ALL BACK. but my piano exam will still be of higher priority!

gosh i feel good. :D ok i still got hwk. heh. gonna collect my specs later at the optician. my eyesight has weakened. :(

last night dunno why i couldnt sleep! i was still awake in bed at 6am ok! then the birds were all calling out to each other. -.-

i really should finish the things i have to do if not i'll make a big deal out of it and get *stressed out* cos after i do it. i realise.. i feel so much less *stressed* haha.

i'm REALLY VERY FASCINATED with my knee. i think i might put it up in my display pic! hahaha.

i still got that lymph node in my throat. i have to do jian bao.. lit and finish reading less 100pgs of the chinese book. hopefully i can get it done by tmr.
i also wanna watch DISNEY's ice princess! and alot like love!!
batman begins.. initial D and fantastic 4 seems quite interesting.. but i'm not that interested. =/

ytd i was wondering to myself.. i seem like a reserved person but i'm not right? o.O
ohh cross dinner was yummy ^^ but we didnt do much after that so i decided to go home first.

okay. shall do other stuff now. x) byebye. :)

`3:50 PM__;

Friday, June 24, 2005

URGGHHHH I'M SO ANNOOOYYYYEEEEDDDD..

THIS IS SSSSSSOOOOOOO AAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOYYIINNGGGGG

~~SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT~~

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH.

@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*@#$%^&*@#$%^&*@#$%^&*@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>=(

I DONT WANT TO TAKE UP THIS RESPONSIBILITY.

I GURANTEE YOU I'M NOT GOING TO DO THAT WELL. BECAUSE I DONT INTEND TO MANAGE MY TIME WELL ENOUGH TO DO EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DO WELL.

NOW MY PIANO EXAM IS OF A HIGHER PRIORITY.

AND I WILL PROVE TO YOU I SUCK AT THIS BECAUSE I NEVER EVEN WANTED THIS ROLE IN THE FIRST PLACE. GET PISSED OFF AND ANNOYED AT ME IF YOU MUST. AT LEAST WE'LL BE ANGRY TOGETHER. :)

RRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

`11:17 PM__;

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

HI. I'M BACK. :D

i'm feeling quite HIGH AT THE MOMENT.

TRICIA IS SUCH A BIG FAT LAZY PIGGGGGGGGG. =X

the moment i came home. i kept eating so much junk food. =X and really.. they gave alot of rice at camp AND I FINISHED IT TOO. [except one time.] HEH. nvm. I STILL got TONS to do and i'm doing nothing really useful now. =/ oh yeah i know what i should do. so far i've only done the NIKE CONTACT LIST. :D and nothing else. bleh.

i like my group. :) they're nice. ^^ NIKE. JUST DO IT. :D haha! i had a GREAT fall at the smooth bamboo courtyard ground while playing jacob's ladder. i seem to be making a big deal about the wound. and so.. i shall tell my readers MORE about it. x)
its really BIG BIGBIG AND BIG AND PRETTTYYYY.. its gonna become a temporary scar and poof! it'll be gone in time to come. xD ~~i had trouble sleeping and getting out of my sleeping bag when the pus on my knee was stuck to the sleeping bag. =X~~ its quite gross.
i feel very suaku and clumsy. FLOOR SO NICE AND SMOOTH. its even worse than my mac ritchie fall the other time. -.-" still can fall down until like that. so paiseh. -.-"

i went to the doctor again. still quite sick. heh. hopefully can get my operation done soon! :)
i dont really care about my hwk today. so now i'm feeling alright. xD feels kinda good to be home. haha after so much rice and chicken. today i shall feast/have feasted on a whole lot of junk food.. and MAGGIE MEE for dinner. :D so unhealthy for a sickling like me. =/ malu malu.

heh. anw i'm quite thankful for the project and group i got in ltc. :) could've been worse you know? hmm. i'm gonna do more THINGS today. i feel like an old woman right now. aching.. =/ okay. have a nice day. :)

`6:01 PM__;

Sunday, June 19, 2005

20-22nd June : LTC
by 26th June : complete all sch hwk
by 28th June : contact all game I/Cs
29th June - 5th July : wisdom tooth MC
8th July : collect all individual proposals
21st July : PIANO EXAM
30th July : SPORTS CARNIVAL

I'M AT PANIC STATION. i think i'm overreacting. AAHHH. AHHH. AHH.
i'm packing now and i'm so annoyed with this zip i broke. CHILL TRICIA.

must sleep early tonight or my sickness will get worse!
must get well ASAP!!

relax. breathe in. breathe out. there might be others who are in a worse situation. TRICIA RELAX.

ok. bye. >.<" :S

`9:34 PM__;

Friday, June 17, 2005

hi. my operation has been postponed. :( i'm gonna be missing 4.5 days of lessons. ARGH.

i actually finished physics today! with the help of the answers too.. >.<" i told myself maybe i can finish geog and chinese hwk by this wknd.. but... i'm having 2nd thoughts.. should i do it now? its so early.. i'm quite tired but i dont wanna sleep.. =/ last night i slept at 12+am.. woke up at 4+am today and i lay in bed all the way till 6.55 and got up for trg. super slack run today. the slower i make myself go on purpose. the more tired i get. -.-"

my piano exam's on 21st july. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'M SCAREDDDDDDDDD. :'( need to practise more often! >.<"

:( what to do now? i shld do all the zhou jis now.. but i dont feel like doing so.. =/ i'm telling myself to read the chinese book instead.. but it seems wrong if i dont do the zhou jis now though actually its ok. -.-"

i need to pack for ltc.

eenimeenimynimo [or however the spelling] which hwk should i do now?

`10:23 PM__;

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

have a few things to talk about today. but i didnt do much other than playing gunbound and slacking around. ok i shall start with the short ones.

1. i just remembered today that i finished all my math hwk before i left for perth! hahaha so i'm left with physics chinese lit and geog. sounds little. but there's alot for chinese and physics. X_X

2. i wanna watch mr and mrs smith. but i think i might miss it. and i seem quite fine with it.

3. my illness. not sure if i can go for my wisdom tooth operation. =/ if i can.. then i cant go for the part time job my aunt offered me.. :( but i wanna go for my operation more than the part time job anw. cant wait to get it over and done with. I'M PREPARED ALREADY I MUST GET WELL ASAP. [hope i can go for operation!! >.<"]

4. 3 cousins are staying over tonight. i feel really mean for giving them such restrictions. but i'm so sick of telling them to put back what they touch and they end up not putting it back. and they're late night sleepers like i was in pri sch. haha. they're p2.. p4 and p5 they're not that bad really.. but can be real pain in the neck. esp one of them. just now there was one funny bit when i was a *dj* with no pay and singing songs on my list with my sorethroat with them. hahahah. but now i think it should be ok for the rest of the night. ok no wait. that one just fell and her butt hit my back real hard. >:( i am annoyed. i will live. :)

5. last night i *scanned through* dajie's 2nd most recent entry.
And I guess part of the reason I really miss having T around when she's gone, is because she gets along so much better with our parents, that it's only when she's around that I feel we're more like a normal family because we're all bonded to her. That because she's around, we can talk normally, have fun and all, and do things together without having an argument spoil the rest of our time together.
really. just reading that bit of it. i felt very honoured. and you know not the ego honoured. but the feeling that i'm actually loved? and i felt quite touched. really. and that i have created an special impact on someone's life just doing my usual daily stuff.
i love both my jiejies. <3(x

ok. now one of my cousins is upset. gosh. they really remind me how i was like with my sisters when i was their age. hahahha! now its SO DIFFERENT. gosh. can you believe i live under the same roof as them?! then again. not really. they dont really stay here now. =/

ok i can take my tablet now. got piano tmr morning. goodnight. :)

`12:18 AM__;

Sunday, June 12, 2005

hi. :D
i think i should be doing hwk. =/ esp tuition hwk. i wanna get well by tuesday night toooo.

today i woke up with a less leaky nose but more coloured mucus. [sorry if i'm grossing you out.] and my throat felt better but my voice was worse. haha. =/

now i cant eat the junk food i want to eat. >:( bahh.

today whole family celebrated early father's day and early erjie's bday. went to eat lunch at plaza sing.. quite filling. =/ then i got erjie a pair of earrings.. think i might get her another pair she wants later. didnt want to buy both together. quite ex for earrings.. and i coudnt really bare to spend more money. =X so i'd rather spend it lil bit by lil bit. heh.

i also saw nice 1000 piece jigsaw puzzles!
i shall start up a wishlist and add:
-free time
-to be able to complete animated pictures of >1000 piece jigsaw puzzles ON MY OWN
-PHOTO FRAMES FOR MY COMPLETED WORKS :D

haha. ok now i just want the frames.. i keep clearing away all my completed works.. so wasted right. :(

ohh then my dad.. jies and i took neoprints together. haha! was quite fun. :D

then we came home and ate durians at about 5+. my sis says its really heaty for a sickling like me. >.<" i ate 4 pieces. heh.

oh well. now i'm just worrying away and trying to avoid my hwk till 15th june. haha. =X

`6:26 PM__;

Saturday, June 11, 2005

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. @#$%^&*!!!!!!!

i did a 7km run with a leaky nose today.

and i just woke up from a really uncomfortable nap

AND.. i just found out that i'm sick. URGH. fever + leaky nose + dry throat. and they keep making me talk!

my mum says if i dont get well by wed i cannot go for wisdom tooth operation. i mean it has some good sides to it.. but i dont wanna postpone it!!! >:( ARGH.

hmph. oh well. what to do? :( must get well soon. =/ i think i can get well by wed right? :) hmm.

`6:41 PM__;

Friday, June 10, 2005

HELLOHELLOHELLOHELLOHELLO

I'M BACK!!

HAHA start panicking.

i have become a shopping freak. @#$%^&*!!!!!!!! but not shopaholic. i almost didnt buy stuff for my sisters. no wait actually i did AND THEY LIKED IT!! HAHAH [maybe thats why my dajie called me a shopping queen xD] i feel like a ggreat meimei. ^^ oh and my family loved the chocolates. :D [then again no one in my family hates chocolate =X] ytd when i got out of the airport.. my mum erjie and dajie were there. and during the ride home I COULDNT SHUDDUP. i kept yapping on and on and on about the sales and not having enough time to shop and everything else i bought. >.<"

haha oh well. THE SALES THERE ARE WAY GREATER THAN *GREAT S'PORE SALE* oops.

my roomate aka shopping partner aka fellow crossie tifft was a nice person. xD [as usual =X]

actually i dont think everyone really bonded much. i just loved the shopping and the aeroplane ride though it was kinda boring. and i also realised that perth is so divided. the city the farms the schools and wildlife park are SO FAR AWAYYYYYYY. didnt expect the bus rides to be so long. but aiyah overall i had fun. xD

my camera kept dying. :( next time i'll use the other nicenice one. ^^
OHOHOH I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY BRIDGE!

oya they have so many rainbows there!! and i think the rain there is hilarious. hahahahahhaha.
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anw i've been waking up at 6+ the past few mornings and have been sleeping at 11+/12 everynight. earliest was 10.30 and i did manage to get some naps.. last night i slept at 2+ and woke up at 7+. tmr's first trg.. gotta wake up early again SO I'M GONNA TRY AND SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT. as soon as i feel that my dinner has been disgested or something.

this morning when i went to the hospital for the *checkup* to make sure i was healthy enough for the wisdom tooth operation. i found out that..... i'm gonna get 2 *ant-bite* injections. eeks.i dont like injections. :S i still rmb the one when i was 6 and the one for making my gums numb.. tHAT HURT ALOT. but the others on my arm were ok i guess.
i'm quite freaked out about my operation. =/

heh. dunno what i'm gonna do tmr afternoon. sit at home and stare into space? hmm =/

anw i think i might blog more about my perth trip another time. now i shall pack for tmr and get ready to sleep. :D

`7:53 PM__;

Friday, June 03, 2005

hello. x)

i actually had abit of successful shopping today. xD

i had gelato ice cream today. one scoop is SUPER BIG.

i am quite a happy person. contented + satisfied with what i have with my life.
not that i've acheived all my goals. but i'm still working towards it and its kinda nice. :D

ok i was kidding. NOW i am quite a happy person. hahaha. i cant be so upset all the time right? i'll get so sick of it. -.- but becoming more disciplined since sec 1 has made me more naggy and impatient. LOL i'm room i/c sorry tiff but i think i might end up annoying you. oops. -.-'''

OO I'M SO EXCITED. and half scared that BLAHBLAHBLAH and BLAHBLAH and BLAH...

gosh i think i've got the first 5days of my mc with swollen mouth at home planned! i am gonna do hwk and pack my room. is that good or what. xD and i will spend the next 2 days of it in LTC. hopefully i will be able to eat then. if not its gonna be so troublesome for the teachers then i'll be this annoying problematic child there just because my wisdom teeth got pulled out. -.-

NO MATTER. thats the later part of my life. i shall talk about NOWWWWWWW. i'm awake. talking to tiff. and i think that i'm talking cock. and i'm supposed to be in bed. and i think tiff is busy. so I WILL FORCE MYSELF TO SLEEP. might not be able to blog tmr i think. gonna be out till evening and then pack for the trip. :) byebye.

`12:21 AM__;

Thursday, June 02, 2005

SO.. you expect me to be inspired by your words?
you expect me to learn something?
--
i tell you something
i KNOW it already. and there's even more to that which you still dont know about.
*they* have gone through more than you. --.
you're so affected by your surroundings.
i'm so sick of hearing you speak about how ___ experience did to your life or how great it is.
i dont need to hear you repeat yourself so many times. I'M NOT INSPIRED. cos you know its not just ____.
cos the lessons in life never ends. ^^

i realised that the stuff i keep to myself can actually be more than i thought it was. haha.

monster in law has a great trailer. the movie's hilarious. but... abit ok lah. =/ wouldnt say its DAMN GOOD or anything.

15th june. go hospital. get conked out. get rid of all 4 wisdom teeth and have MC for the next 7days which wont end till 21st June. i'll have a swollen mouth within that period and will not be allowed to eat anything. bahh liquid diet. lol. i dont think i'll be able to run then too.. :(

and i have ltc camp from 20-22nd june. hopefully i will be able to eat then? hmm. and hopefully my mouth will be less swollen haha.

trg resuming on 11th june!!! and its at mac ritchie!!!!!!!!!!! :) :D

`12:07 AM__;