maple leaves.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

hello! havent blogged for.. 6 days? o.O

this has been my daily school life schedule:
school
trg/tuition + piano/ project + nap
dinner
shower
hwk
sleep
and i've been sleeping from 11+ to 12+ this week.

today i got no hwk! xD actually i had a maths.. which i finished in school. had about 4 free periods today [including recess] spent the time doing hwk and sleeping. -.- and during ss i practically slept through 55mins out of 60mins of the video. man that sucks. guilty. -.-"

well.. so far my trg's still been quite bad lately.. [from my view] i still seemed to have deproved a big lot. but i think ytd's one was better than last mon's. [thats a good sign :)] and really.. i wanna get back to where i was ASAP! darn i feel so weak!! ugh. and you know what. i read something that calmed me down abit from this worry.. the next day i couldnt help worrying about the fact that i'm worrying too little.

that sounds like nonsense right? worrying for worrying too little about something. i'm such a worrywart. then again. i feel lazy if i dont worry about something i should worry about. i did receive a few comments/encouragements that i would be able to get back soon.. but so far.. nothing good [or even if there was something good already.. not too obvious]. :( my mum thinks i shouldnt run at all! she says i havent fully recovered. but i think i'm well enough to run already. i just got a nose that wants to run as much as my legs and a little tiny bit of phlegm.

hai.. anw tiff tan's got into my head. so now.. 48 days left to nationals. which makes it less than 48 days to work extra hard.. and be extra focused and more determined.
i say it like its so easy. but no matter what i still gotta try to do it. i need to make the best of every training and try to push myself. i really wanna get back to where i was soon and get even better before nationals.
i've actually spoken to alot of crossies about this.. esp last week. i dunno why but i really felt like i needed to tell someone/some ppl.. and if they felt like saying something they would have said it too right?

i really do feel horrible. but well.. now i just gotta do all that i can. :) if not i'll be letting so many/some ppl and myself down which i dont want to.

i noticed that even on how i miss the bus or not and how early i get to the bus stop.. can be actually applied to trainings. so i figured that if i could do the little things right. i'd have higher chances of doing the complicated things right. got a similar phrase from the diary..

speaking of the diary.. i really do like its quotes. ;) and this week's quote is...
the most valuable gift you can give is time.
i seriously agree on that. or if not.. my brain cant think of what gift is more valuable than that. i mean like.. to me.. anything is possible when time is not concerned. like i ask you to reach the stars in one second NOW. i dont think you can right? maybe you can.. but not now.. until you've figured how to. it will be possible to reach the stars in one second.. somehow.. someday. haha.
its just an example la.

gosh i still have alot more to type!! eeks. switched places with audrey. mainly because i didnt really like being cornered by bowlers. haha.

ok. american idol now.. maybe i'll watch till 10.30 or something then go to bed after that. alot of ppl have been telling me to eat more fruits + vegetables.. drink alot of water.. take alot of vit C and HAVE ENOUGH SLEEP. and i'm already doing all that. [i think] so.. ya. i'm already using my recess time to sleep an extra half an hour and each time i wake up i feel like i dislocated my jaw or something. some part of me always ends up feeling numb for a while. -.-

race this sat. erjie's going too. o.o that means i got someone to go back with i think! xD haha. okok.. bye!

`10:12 PM__;

Friday, February 18, 2005

everyday is always different.

so how special is a special day? - an extra different day?

today:
its the friday of the 7th week of school. i missed the bus. i slept during recess. i paid attention in physics. i actually forgot to bring my pencil box home for the first time. -.-

who cares? o.O then again.. how much does it really matter ah?

for now.. it doesnt matter. haha. had a mc donalds dinner at turf city after a long time.. x) took bus back around 7.. =/ i think there was some jam along commonwealth and i was falling asleep alot then. >.<" heh.

recently i noticed the effects of carrying a schoolbag [esp a heavy one] without a good posture. it bends my collarbone out of shape. its like.. first my collarbone sticks out around my neck.. and then its hidden behind some skin and then it sticks out again at my shoulder - effect of carrying schoolbag.
then again. thats MY theory. haha.. not too sure if its really true. -.-"

this week i have come into conclusion that eating pears + grapes helps in successful shitting. ;) no kidding.

i'm almost done with reading an enemy of the people!! x) and so.. after i finish it tonight i shall go to bed. PS. IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO SMS/CALL ME WITHIN THE NEXT 24 HOURS.. PLEASE DO IT TMR AFTERNOON OR BEFORE 12AM TONIGHT. THANKS.
or maybe i should just switch off my handphone. i'm so tired this week. anyone who wakes me up through my phone shall die a horrible death!! >:( my sleep is very important to me! rarr!

ok. have a nice weekend. bye.

`10:21 PM__;

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

today..

i felt that my life is full of nonsensical piles of dung.

DONT EXPECT ME TO REPLY SMSES ABOUT HOMEWORK/TESTS/SCHOOL. quit relying on others! >:( or if not you go and die lah.

and i believe there's even more to that.

bye.

`7:07 PM__;

Monday, February 14, 2005

hello.. I AM DAMN PISSED WITH THE IDIOT WHO SIGNED ME UP FOR BEEP TEST. 1. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I WAS RUNNING. 2. SHE DIDNT BOTHERED TO TELL ME. 3. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT WAS TODAY. 4.I JUST RECOVERED. 5. I USED UP MY RECESS TIME WHICH I WAS PLANNING TO USE TO BUY ROSES FOR SOME PPL. >:( GO AND DIE LAH.

ok. school today was quite ok.. just that i ended running up and down a few times. >.<" received nice valentine's day gifts from absolute kind souls. guilty. -.-" realised my chocolates had melted when i got home. lol. next year [aka last yr in mg] i'll ~~try to rmb to~~ get gifts. x)

training.. well i was looking forward to it in some way.. felt like i hadnt ran in ages. i had confidence that i could do the workout today BUT.. flu attack X__X i completed 2/3 of it.. 2nd one didnt hit timing.. i could have finished the workout feeling super guilty about my timings for the rest of the day but i didnt even finish it and jogged a few rounds on the field instead.

why am i not upset?? o.O [actually i'm upset that i'm not upset about my trg today.] well at least i didnt cry. x)
hmm.. maybe because...
1. i was running again? xD
2. i actually had the guts to tell mr ng i wasnt feeling well. [never did it before in my entire life in cross ok (but i hope i dont feel this sick again)]
3. BEEP test took out some of my energy. [but i felt normal though]
4. i covered a longer distance while jogging on the field? haha well it felt like a good jog.
5. i seem to be in gooooood mood today.

but i'm pretty sure that if i didnt feel sick i could have completed the workout well enough. [sounds ego. but really.. i mean it.] hmm.

well i must say that today.. while jogging on the field. it felt good. it felt like a long run. running at my own pace all by myself.. who cares if the whole world is watching me. its MY run. xD haha. that jog on the field really felt better than the workout.. so relaxed.. self runs are usually with other ppl.. dunno why but i get affected by other ppl's presence when i run. and maybe its cos i was running on the grass.. beats running on the red man-made track. x) but for now.. nie's not my enemy. :)

ok. if i'm not doing long run on wednesday or if i feel sick again i'm gonna cry like mad. i dont want 1km intervals.. or girls route.. dont really want T junction or red indian I MISS THE NORTHERN ROUTE LIKE MAD. havent ran it since december ok.. now its already feb! [i hope i havent deproved. >.<"]

its time to shuddup about running now. now i feel not so sick already. xD but my nose ah.. seriously blown too much already and there's some area in my throat that hurts. =/

dont feel like reading an enemy of the ppl.. i think i want to go sleep now. haha.. or maybe just read until 10? x)

`8:47 PM__;

Sunday, February 13, 2005

i am highly irritated. :(

i dont like to be sick. my throat hurts like mad. i've blown my nose too much. i feel so weak and i want to do things that i cant do.
well.. at least my hwk's done.

@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!

so what if my fever's gone. MY WHOLE FAMILY'S SICK. except for erjie.

bah. i noticed being sick makes me all moody ~~lol~~.

i've been waking up early by myself the past few days.. neither have i been sleeping well.. every night without fail i will wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep.. and then i'll wake up again when its not even past 11am. >:(

i better get well by 12am tonight! i dont care! i musttt!!!!!!!!

i cried again when i was upset. and yet i didnt reach to the certain extent when i really felt like crying.. but tears just came out. stupid thing. >:(

i dont like this. i need to start reading an enemy of the ppl soon. its almost week 8. >.<"

`11:22 AM__;

Saturday, February 12, 2005

bleh. this sucks.

i feel super duper WEAK. >:(

my fever did go away yesterday. this morning i got woken up by mosquito bites. -.- slept real late last night due to obvious reasons. --. anw.. before i continue.. i need to THANK ERJIE FOR TAKING CARE OF ME LIKE A MOTHER HEN. xD

okok.. i kinda survived school today.. this morning started out pretty well.. until i started falling asleep in every lesson. my fever came back again and i couldnt go for training. [which i heard got cancelled in the end]

so after school i just waited at the concourse to be picked up..
i felt so horrible just waiting for my dad.. it was like.. when was the last time my parents picked me up after school?? other then the time when i had camps.. why couldnt i just take 970 home?! and yet its only because i was sick! >:(

and i also felt real slack eventhough i had pe today. i've only ran thrice in the past 2 weeks. >.<"

slept the whole day today but only woke up twice to see the doctor and have dinner. then i slept again and woke up to shower at 11+.

now i think i've slept too much.. and i feel so restless. >.<" i want to sleep somemore! ugh i dont wanna do hwk! :(

mosquitoes are everywhere!!! @#$%^&*!!!

and beware of the flu bug!!

`12:10 AM__;

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

hello!

obs was fun. no bites no burn. hahahaha.

i like the DDD! so funny.. oh and during rockclimbing i got a few booboos for knocking into the rockwall. -.-"

and theres still more..

like the ppl in my tent! hahahah was laughing every night. -.-"

ok anw.. trg's so far not bad. :) made friends with nie ytd. after so long...

i fell sick today. -.- napped from 3+ to 7+ with erjie... and realised my temp's 39 deg.
NONSENSE I TELL YOU!! nonsense!!! but the good thing is that i wont miss sch/trg blah. x) i'll heal soon la. :D
oya and dajie's got slight fever.. [all these must be some sign to tell me not to run tmr morning. :/]

i think i'm becoming more rude. >.<"

oh.. before we knew we were sick.. i think we started talking more nonsense.. =/ like now.. i think i'm talking cock. bye!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! :)

`10:30 PM__;